six sundays

katakata

2012-02-04T13:17:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum..

just a few food for thoughts..

my mom once said: kadang-kadang bila kita marah, kita jadi ter-kurang ajar.

and i am actually scared of myself when i am mad. unfortunately, lately i did blew up like never before. it was appropriate the thing i was mad at, but it wasn't appropriate at all what i did or said. it scares the people around me, it scares the hell out of me most of all.

a girl friend once gave me advice on surviving a relationship: don't mention other guys' name too much in front of your boyfriend. he'll eventually get bored of the relationship.

i took the advice, thankful of the reminder and live by it. though i know deep down i'm not gonna do it even if i wasn't told coz who would want to do that? isn't it too deliberately hurtful? but i don't think guys give smart advice like that to their pals. what a pity. what a shame.

i wanna Yuna

2012-01-30T18:12:00.000+08:00

a reminder of why we have to go watch PDB show :P

ada bunga dalam hati

2012-01-17T18:55:00.000+08:00

Hafiz! ♥

daddy's cupcake

2012-01-14T12:57:00.002+08:00

something cute happened the other day.. ohh btw i'm in Kuching! yay! and the little Aqif will also be here in 5 days. double yay! the other day I was playing with Aqif, and my brother was also in the same room.

i was holding Aqif..
me: Aqif, klak di Kuching kita polah cupcakes ok!
Abang: nya lah cupcake *head down looking at his phone*
me: hah?? *surprised that my brother actually responds to my silly conversation with a 3-month-old baby*
Abang: nya lah cupcake *looked at me, serious face*
me: sapa?
Abang: Aqif lah. nya lah cupcake.

aieeeeeee paham sikkk? how cute is that?? a brother whom all this while doesnt seem to care bout the existence of cupcakes let alone my passion for cupcakes, is actually saying his son is THE cupcake! I bet my sis-in-law who was listening in the other room was also surprised. haha thinking bout the conversation made my day over and over again :))

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so long 2011

2012-01-09T22:25:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum, and happy new year y'all!! sorry i'm 9 days late to wish you guys that, but we are still in the new year spirit righttt! new year, new resolutions, new aims, new goals, new targets, alll sorts of things you want them new. na'ah? alrity, since my previous years azam were not that accomplished (i cant remember making any azam for 2011 to start with), lets just make this year's azam to be better than yesteryear(s). be a better daughter, a better sister, a better friend, a better lover, a better listener, a better punch bag, a better giver, a better writer, a better student, a better designer, ~~a better QS,~~ a better baker, ~~a better stalker,~~ a better ~~girl~~ woman, a better human being, a better Malaysian, a better Kuchingite, on top all, a better servant to my Creator, a better Muslim.

1. I want to come early for meetings and classes (ergh. kantoi).

2. I want to socialise more in person, rather than just logging on to FB to look if they are on chat.

3. I want to sleep on time and have deep quality slumber.

4. I have to stop procastinating.

5. I have to explore KL more : both the real deal of living in KL, AND the confusing-making-me-cry-when-i'm-lost-road of Klang Valley -_-'' (but i'm scared!)

6. I have to not be scared.

errrr regarding no 4, I think i'll start right after thiss post. coz if I started, this entry might have been posted like 10 days ago :P

recap on how my 2011 went:

Apiz turned 25! big boyy!

and we turned 11 :')

the sleepless nights in March. due to datelines AND some pain i felt on my right side of tummy, apparently due to follicular cyst. still can feel the pain now, literally this very moment. but the doc said its nothing serious so i'm putting a strong face on :)

after the battle with 3D Autocad and the tummy pain, i got to board the plane to Adelaide at 10pm the same day i submitted my work! what a blisss! lamak dah sik go on a long flight to anywhere.. seronok ok!! :D i started feeling excited when we took the train and left the main terminal for the international terminal in KLIA. i dont know if they have specific name for the terminals :P

enjoying evening sun in Glenelg, Adelaide. i super duper love evening sun!! :D

reaching Ashcombe Maze & Lavender Garden to me, was a big accomplishment! though i wasnt driving, but it was my initiative. i read bout this place way back before i even know i'm going to Melbourne anytime soon. see, i have a thing for cool stuff like a MAZE! and also a garden full of flowers in harmony colour! i just keep the info that i got in a little notebook that i carry around, and when i did know for sure that i'm bound for Melbourne in April, i searched for more info on the place. and the morning we were supposed to drive to the garden, i woke up early so i can go to the Visitor Information Centre to get one final info on the route to get to that place. it is in Shoreham, Victoria and is approximately 94km away from Melbourne CBD. on our way, i think we passed a few vineyard. but i was asleep half of the journey coz i didnt have enough sleep the night before, and i'm already tired of the walk i took that morning to the Visitor Information Centre. haish.

my friend said that i took a lot of photos of building and sceneries while i'm in Adelaide and Melbourne. but i countered back, "there are photos of me, but i didnt upload them (on FB). i purposely put the ones without me in them" but then when i checked back, nang sik banyak pun! ahaha like 90% of the photos are buildings and sceneries ALONE. welll... i have my reasons :|

on 26 August 2011, also on the 26th day of the fasting month last year, my grandfather passed away peacefully on a Friday morning. needless i say more, he is dearly missed and forever will be loved by all of the family members. may Allah SWT grants him barakah in the hereafter. Ameen..

a little guy name Muhd Aqif Raziq was born on 14 September 2011!! he is my darling little nephew. i remember he was handsome and have long legs when i first met him, that is two days after he was born :)

i got pretty excited that i spelled 'Auntie' with double A. hehe :P

and this is his recent photo. acting all gangster in his hooded sleeveless shirt. careful when you see this little brat in your hood, he might look you in the eyes and you will fall in love ♥

this was how i celebrated my birthday!

24 october. eh tiba-tiba :P

hehehe of course you cant see anything! we were watching fireflies and trying to take home a souvenir photo of them, but of course we failed. the first hand experience was awesomenesss! this is another place on my secret wishlist, that i never tell anyone i wanted to go, well i guess Apiz knows my obsession with awesome stuff like this. thank you, you :) Apiz keep on singing Firefly by Owl City during the journey to and from the park. hihihi

birthday dinner 1 :P

birthday dinner 2 - with two birthday cakes :')

oh and just a few minutes before 12am menandakan 25 October, i received a text from my mom. sounded something like this:

so u are 25 today. u must know how to make wise decision in whatever ways. may Allah bless us. Amin.

i felt sad reading it. it just feels like i'm old enough to take care of myself, but sometimes i cant do it right. how how how lah to take care of people around me? at this age, i am the one who's suppose to take care of my parents welfare, but i still ask them for money *malunyaa* and i definitely am bad at decision making. always calling my mom every now and then to ask if its ok to do this or that. but InsyaAllah, i'll learn. and i'll do something so i can start doing what a daughter my age should do to their parents :')

i also get to see Shane in action in real time this yearrrr! ehh. i mean Westlife. Westlife in action in real time :P very the excited! especially when they did What Makes a Man and Flying Without Wings :')

i guess both me and Apiz are glad that we discovered Ayam and Projek Disko Baldi this year. heheh

and the weddings! i think 2011 is the year friends start getting married. both primary & secondary school friends and uni friends. one after another, and these are some of the ceremony that i got to go to.. there are a few more that i didnt manage to go.. nevertheless, my prayers are always with those who made this big step to maturity and above all, pure engagement called marriage :)

Ainil & Elly. they are now expecting a baby anytime soon this month! :D

Iman and her husband (sorry i forgot his name!) already has one additional member to the family! :D

Sarah & Rudi - also expecting the little one sometime in May! :D

Pejul & Bahiyah. shaky i know. but this is the only photo i have of us.

my darling Asha & Nasir. well babe, we are expecting the good news from you ;P

Rabiah & Yasser. alicia keys kolej dah kawen y'all :P

Nur & Farhan - one of my very first friends from primary school years :')

just like 2011, i am blessed to get to usher the new year 2012 together with my family.

i wish you all a happy year ahead. sure there'll be hurdles and obstacles along the way, but like we always hear from time to time, what doesnt kill you, makes you stronger, right? and Allah SWT surely does not put you through something you can not deal with. believe and pray.

till next post :)

dudes

2011-12-11T00:27:00.004+08:00

Assalamualaikum and hello people!

i've been hooked with some videos on YouTube for these past few days, when i actually should be doing my designs.. ergghh! the videos are addictive and the titles are ridiculous that they are so tempting :P i'm sure some of you out there are already subscribers to Ryan Higa, or Kevin Wu, or the Wong Fu (the one who made Strangers, Again short film i posted before!), but if you're not, check them out yeaaa! they'll seriously make your day! especially Ryan..? nope! scratch that! Kev's dad will make your day! this one made me laugh the hardest so far, now its your turn! laugh out loud y'all!

i was so addicted to Kevin and his dad that i look for all videos containing his dad. thinking bout his dad actually makes me smile, like what i'm doing now. haha and then.. i found a few videos where Kevin talked bout their adventures on Amazing Race and some footage from the show. and then i remembered! yess i watched that season of Amazing Race before! but how come i did not recognise them? but i do remember the father and son team in which the father is so funny and zealous while the son is so cute :P well, what i remember most is the dad was so old-looking that i was amazed that he could go on to all those crazy challenges. you know how Amazing Race goes about right? and it's not Amazing Race Asia, its the US version. you can be Papa Jumba's (that's what he calls himself) fan on Fcaebook too you know! just search for PapaJumba, i guess. hahaha i dont know why i'm advertising him so much :P

this next video is a music video made by Ryan, Kevin & Chester. by the way, i think Chester is an amazing singer :) and this song i think is fully sang by him. correct me if i'm wrong. any Chester's fan out there? there are actually two versions of the video. one made for Ryan, one for Kevin. i cant really decide which one i like better, coz i love them both (i mean those guys not the videos) in a different way. hihihihihihi how about you decide!

Ryan's version:

Kev's version:

Apiz mesti menyampah, 'another vlogger??' i think he menyampah with matluthfi90 already coz i always talk bout his videos. well i like them for a reason (or reasons? since there's a few of them). like, matluthfi's videos are always tucked with messages whether you realised it or not, and they're funny. it's like each of his video is an art masterpiece by itself. higa's videos are fun & light watching and the faces he made are hilarious rasa mok tampar. kev's videos feature his dad which is the absolute winner! hahaha and wong fu's videos are like alas perut if you're craving for good movies :)

another reason, watching them reminds me of Apiz sometimes. like watching Nice Guys' video. nice guys dont usually finish last, from my pov. nice guys are the one i look for first and want to end up with, like Apiz. Apiz doesnt exactly pull my chair (no need lah kot, if we're only dining at McDonald kan??), or give me his jacket when i'm cold (sikda nya nak cold gilak rah Malaysia tok) and he definitely tells me i look fat when i look fat. but he also drives me around eventhough sometimes he has extremely bad headache, or when he's so sleepy that he takes a nap between green lights, and he always picks up my calls even when he's in a meeting and all i wanted to know was how to make the print screen thingy works :P all i'm trying to say is, Apiz is my nice guy, my first guy actually, and yeah i would like to have him as my last guy :) :)

oh so random!

2011-11-29T10:40:00.000+08:00

i've abandoned this place for a while, i know. and i feel bad for it. truth is, nowadays i cant seem to put my thoughts into words. i have the time, most of it i spend watching tv or stalking other blogs, but not nourishing and fluorishing my own. it feels like i am pweety lazy lately. i am lazy to read too many text, i am lazy to calculate simple maths, i even feel lazy to feel. and i am afraid that i'm losing myself. i can feel that i am not really the person who i was before, lately. takut, takuuut aiee :( it could be works that consume me bit by bit, or this place. this busy city which waits for no one. things seem to pass me by just like that (while i'm watching tv. heh). i hope i know enough the difference of losing passion and maturity, though.

but before i went out for class thismorning, i get to watch Barbie in 12 Dancing Princess on TV3! yeay! i wish i could watch it til the end, but i have to do my grown-up duty. but i probably will look for the DVD later :P watching the princesses dancing in colourful dresses and enjoying myself while doing it somehow gives me hope that i still have that few bit of my old self within me :)

i used to congratulate myself infront of you people every three months of my success after each term, right? and i dont really do it anymore right?? i know, right. i think i missed two terms without doing so..? now i'm in the middle of the last term of the year. less than a month to go to get over and done with this one. and i'm through to the last term, with God's willing. almost a year and a half passed, just like that *plucking fingers*. as much as i dont want it to be over too soon (coz i love the lecturers. now, really..?), i cant wait to be done with it either! i dont know whats waiting for me ahead, but i am pumped to know and discover. people say its a bitch, but i think i am ready to walk ahead and trip and stand up and fight :) lets just see la kan :P

friends are married. lots of friends. a couple of good friends. and another one coming up this weekend. and these few friends are those whom i was and am very close to. one is my childhood bestfriend, the first friend whom i called bestfriend as a kid :) one is my rebellious partner whom taught me a thing or two bout living in a society in which boys and men exist. haha and one is my leg warmer friend. eh? i mean she's so cool that she warms me up with her kind words and perspective of life, whenever i feel like banging my head to the wall :) congratulations, you three! i wish you all the best! and i hope our kids will one day be friends like we are, too! :) :) :)

congrats Rabiah! :')

congrats Asha! :')

i know this is random, but i think another reason for me not writing, is that thoughts and ideas always come at the wrong place. right time though, but very wrong place. like in the bathroom..? and during lecture..? and while i'm driving..? right timing, i tell you. like those are my thinking momento. well i'm not suppose to think bout other things during lecture though, but some things lead me to another you see. but but BUT, i cant write the thought down cos i dont have a pen and a paper with me at that time! i dont carry a pen with me in the bathroom, do you? i cant write while i'm driving, you can aa? and i cant pretend like i'm writing notes when i'm actually writing an emotional blog entry while i'm in the class, kannn?? hehehe but now! i'm in the class. finally.

they all went to the canteen, leaving notebooks and laptops just like that. its a safe place.

oh! about my birthday! :) about it.....

the promise that was broken

2011-10-18T00:49:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum :)

these few days, i've been missing Adelaide. one place that i promised i will never go to again, or even miss it. but here i am, helplessly missing the city. especially this one:

the empty parking lot of Harbour Town and a red rooster building at the back. i think i miss the red rooster building the most. heh

and the late evening walk at Glenelg beach :')

and the pianos scattered around the city. Glee's purple piano project reminds me of these pianos :'|

Adelaide was this vacation full of emotions, i mean all kinds of emotion. starting from the immigration check in, till the departure for Melbourne, which somehow contribute to me vowing never ever stepping my feet there ever again. haha see how i emotional i get with her? :P but i admit, i AM missing Adelaide, the laidback city. especially those 70's style houses! if i could, i would stop and take photos in front of all the cute houses i passed by! or maybe build one just like it here in Malaysia? cuteness i tell you! :P well, on top of everything that happened, i miss those time badly, and i miss my travel mate dearly :')

high school crush

2011-10-08T06:57:00.011+08:00

Assalamualaikum :)

i just went back from the Westlife concert. like seven hours ago. ahah but i cant sleep since i drank teh tarik for the very late dinner just now. or was it just post-concert excitement? :B my heart is beating fast like a drum beat on a macarena song. yerdeh. i did try the relaxation method, or whatever you call it, to slow down the heart palpitation, but failed. hey i succeeded in few cases before! oh yess i got insomnia alot! its just the beginning of the semester, only week 1 to be exact, and i'm already staying up throughout the night (the best part is i did nothing but toss and turn in my bed instead of doing assignment!!) ! hoorayy! not.

so yeah, about the concert. AWESOME! need i say more? Westlife was awesome as always. as awesome as 11 years ago. i just wished they could sing more of the old old tracks - coz they sound more familiar than the new ones...? :P honestly, i stopped following them after i left secondary school. not purposely though, it just grew out of me. it grew out most of people i think. maybe cos we have more things to attend to other than drooling over some good looking fellas who sing beautiful love songs? but i never stop liking them though. whenever i hear their new song on the radio, i can easily recognised Shane & Mark's voices and i know that's Westlife :P and to prove my love for them, i never like another band or singer more than i like them after i stopped following them. well, until JB comes up. but that's nothing compared to how i love those Irish lads! ok nang mena-menar lah nak convince you people that i really like these people. like proving my love to them gituu. well, there were the very first band/singer that i'm a fan of from the English mainstream. seriously. before Westlife, i was the biggest fan of Elite!!!!! hahahaha SERIOUS confession here, people!! :P nahh i'm not ashamed of it. i still like to look at the pretty photos of the Elite members. i guess every girl has an idol to look up in their process of growing up, right? well i first started with a Barbie, and then the fairytale princesses (or was it the other way round? it should be the other way round) and then there were these Elite girls. haha ok we were talking bout who, again? Westlife or Elite? a'hah about the concert, the only thing that was a bit frustrating was the stage. stage AF lagik grande than this one. it was just a rectangular stage in black. no LED lights under the floor like Anugerah Juara Lagu. just.plain.black. no fun. since i don't really know their new songs, what more to memorise the lyrics of those songs, i can't sing along to those songs. but but but! - i did screamed my lungs out to What Makes A Man and Flying Without Wings!!! i'm actually surprised that they sang What Makes a Man since it wasn't a hit song. was it? i was hoping they do the signature Swear It Again, or legendary If I Let You Go. like the very first few songs that introduced Westlife to the world! heheh BUT i was also expecting Flying Without Wings, so i am super duper contented! :) and when Nicky said 'raise up your hands if you listened to Westlife songs during your high school time?' or something like that, i just feel connected, you know! you who listened to Westlife songs especially during your Form 1 2 3 years would know what i'm saying! but then he added 'yeah! it makes you feel old, right?' or something like that. ahaha what we all did not expect was, a proposal made by a guy to his girlfriend on the stage before the thousand pairs of eyes in the stadium! and after the lady said yes to her newly-engaged man, the Westlife lads sang My Love with the couple still sitting on the stage. and they hugged after the song ended! i mean the newly-engaged couple hugged those four Irish boys one by one, not they hugged each other. how romantic and sweet and beautiful moment was that?? not the hugging part (that was the jealousy part), the proposing part in front of many on a stage with Kian and Mark recording the moment on their personal recording devices! well having a heart as soft as a tissue, of course i cried. it's like watching romantic comedy bah! the difference is its the real world and those two people are serious in marrying each other, not an act, that the ring stays on the finger after the curtains are drawn! i hope. all in all in all, i still have the hots for Shane :P

that's the happy couple. and the boring stage.

(didn't expect the photo would be too small - very the lazy to crop. :P)

happy faces of 12 years Westlife fans! :)

now now now. still no sign for my eyes wanting to shut and call it a day. in fact, i think i'm ready for breakfast. nyum nyum nyum~

apologies

2011-09-09T18:57:00.000+08:00

Al Fatihah

2011-09-08T21:53:00.001+08:00

on 26 August 2011, also 26 Ramadhan 1432H, Friday morning - my Nek Aki peacefully passed away slightly before Subuh adhan. its been two weeks now since he left us - a wife, 6 children, 5 children-in-laws, and 18 grandchildren. and i am already missing him like crazy. and when i recalled you once said, Fatin Amira is a special name, i cried hard. i cried then, and i cry now. Allah SWT surely planned it all. He chose towards the end of Ramadhan, where almost all of his grandchildren were already back in Kuching (except for two) to have Izrail took his roh from his body. i pray he is in a better state wherever his roh might be right now. and i pray i see him again one day in The Jannah. Rasulullah SAW said people in The Jannah are all young and fit, i hope i recognise you enough, Nek Aki, coz from the photos of a younger you i saw in your house, you were quite good looking that i almost fell for you :') may Allah SWT grants us all the ability to strive for His pleasure in this world, and grants us death with Iman, Ameen. till then, my doa are always with you, Nek Aki. i ♥ you..

imy

2011-08-13T01:16:00.000+08:00

feast for the soul

2011-08-10T16:12:00.003+08:00

watch the rest of this heart-warming documentary :)

Part 2

Nabiollah gets the attention of the judges.

Part 3

Rifdha scores the highest point so far.

Part 4

Djamil cant talk to his mom back in Senegal, and he faces a hard time during his turn.

Part 5

announcement of the winners. Nabiollah recites for the President.

Part 6

credits.

i cant get enough of the footage. i pray one day my children will be able to memorize the Quran as well. i want to do it too, of course. InsyaAllah :)

Subhanallah :)

one or another

2011-08-07T02:49:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum wbt :)

i was once asked by a male friend, ''when are you getting married?'' and i said, ''when i'm ready'' and he asked again, ''ready for what?'' i went, ''ready to take care of my husband'' and he said back, ''why do you think you have to take care of him? why is it not him who's taking care of you?'' i stared blankly at him with eyes wide open. i was taken aback. i never really give that a thought. seriously, that coming from a guy, was really a mind boggling.

i'm not the best person to talk bout relationship. i've been in one relationship with this dude since year 2000, which makes us .. 11 years plus plus now? well, i seriously stop counting after year tenth. though it is a whole ten years of a love story, i cant say that i know everything bout being in a relationship, let alone bout this species they say hails from Mars. yes, of course i learn alot from the years of being in love with one person. i know how he acts around elder people and how he treats his parents with honour, respect and passion. i know the exact word to say to tick him off. i remembered him saying how happy he was that SPM is over, that he wanted to kick me. not all that romantic, i know. its just him expressing his feelings in the weirdest choice of words. but no worries, he did NOT kick me. i watched him took those nervous proud steps on his graduation day 2 years ago. i watched him grow from a boy to a man :) what i'm saying is, being in this single relationship for this long of a period, is different from being in a few different relationships with different people. i could not compare him to another man, coz i dont know any other man. i could not feel different type of treatment, coz he's just being his oneself. i dont get to be introduced to different sets of friends, or even families. but what i could do is, i can anytime and anywhere say ''Dear! you remember that one afternoon we went to the beach and you adopted some siput to become your pets? who goes to the beach in the afternoon, seriously? anyway, you were really taking care of them by not letting them out of your sight .. eventhough they were only digging into sands to protect themselves from a creepy foster dad like you. and then after you finished your Baywatch moment we ate homemade bihun goreng together on the deck. you remember that baby? now what year was that again??'' or .... ''what was your birthday present to me when i turned 21? what did i get you? did i already give you a watch? oh crap i'm out of things to give for your birthday!'' i'm just trying to say that i can reminisce all the sweet and not too sweet moments we went through together anytime without him saying ''i never did that with you?!! // *weird stare at you* // who the heck are you thinking of right now???! // *awkward silence* // *knowing gesture* // *sulking on 1 party, or both*''

i am actually trying to say all relationships need give and take. (errr i dont think i get that message across quite correctly) like what my Justin ~~Baby~~ Bieber says in one of his songs 'it supposed to be some give and take, i know' a relationship doesnt work if there is only 1 part playing Romeo, nor wont it work if only 1 pair of legs doing the tango. doesnt really matter if you're in a 10-year love affair or 3 months cupid stricken, but it does matter how you treat each other with respect and much love through out every triumph and trouble. everyone needs a shoulder to cry on every now and then. behind a man's success, always stands a woman whom he cant do it without; and behind a woman's success, syurga tetap di bawah tapak kaki suami. eh?

so bottom line, do you want to be with your loved one coz you want to be taken care of, or do you want to be together so you can take care of each other for as long as Allah wills you? :)

for a short tazkirah in Ramadhan, Nabi Sulaiman AS once said to his son ''it is better to walk behind a tiger and big snakes which are black, rather than walking behind a woman''. women is the least failed weapon used by the shaitan to destruct men and make them go astray. so, in the holy month of Ramadhan, it might be a good start for all of us to learn to lower our gaze unto the opposite sex. quoting a friend: ''the more sacrifice a person makes (in controlling the gaze) the greater will be the elevation in spirituality. Ibn Qayyum rahamatullahi alayh said that a person who dies without repenting from the sin of casting lustful gazes will be deprived of seeing Allah the Most High.''

Salam Ramadhan all :) :) :)

Nisfu Syaaban

2011-07-15T21:55:00.001+08:00

its Nisfu Syaaban tomorrow, friends :) 16 July 2011 it is, starting from Maghrib. 'nisfu' means middle in Arabic; nisfu Syaaban means the middle of the month Syaaban. there are lots of benefits of the night of Syaaban, among others:

"A hadith said that the advantage of the month of Rejab is the same as the benefits of the Holy Quran compared to other 'qalam', the month of Sya'aban as the same as the entire 'Anbia', and the month of Ramadhan as the same as Allah over all the creatures.One of the benefits of Sya'aban is that those who fast on any day, Allah will forbid him from hellfire and they will be companions to Prophet Yusof in heaven.Another hadith, as narrated by Ibnu Habban in his authentic book, from Muaz bin Jabal ra, said that Prophet Muhammad (pbuh) spoke that "Allah will see his followers on the night of Nisfu Sya'aban and Allah will give rewards or pahala to all of the followers, except those who commit syirik (witchcraft) and adultery".As narrated by Abdullah bin Amru bin al-As, which means "Allah looks at his creatures on the night of Nisfu Sya'aban, and will grant forgiveness, except for two groups, that are those who commit suicide and those who spread fitnah"." (source)

"Hari nisfu sya’aban adalah hari dimana buku catatan amalan kita selama setahun diangkat ke langit dan diganti dengan buku catatan yang baru. Catatan pertama yang akan dicatatkan dibuku yang baru akan bermula sebaik sahaja masuk waktu maghrib, (15 Sya’aban bermula pada 14 hb sya’aban sebaik sahaja masuk maghrib)" (source)

"Dari Abu Hurairah r.a : Nabi saw bersabda : “Telah datang kepadaku Jibrail pada malam nisfu Syaaban dan dia berkata : “Ya Muhammad, pada malam ini pintu-pintu langit dan pintu-pintulah rahmat dibuka. Maka berdirilah dan kerjakan solat lalu angkatlah kedua tanganmu ke langit”. Kata saya : Hai Jibrail, apakah erti malam ini?” Dia menjawab : “Pada malam ini telah dibuka 300 pintu rahmat, maka Allah swtmengampuni orang-orang yang tidak mensyerikatkan Allah dengan sesuatupun, kecuali para ahli sihir, dukun, orang yang suka bermusuhan, peminum khamar, orang yang berbuat zina, pemakan riba, orang yang derhaka kepada kedua orang tua, orang yang suka mengadu domba dan orang yang memutuskan tali persaudaraan, maka sesungguhnya mereka itu tidak akan diampuni sehingga mereka bertaubat dan tidak mengulangi.”" (source)

here's another great read. i only hope all my readers understand Bahasa Malaysia, cause i cant really find good articles bout Nisfu Syaaban in English :)

my hungry turtles

2011-07-14T14:12:00.000+08:00

you like my new layout? you like? you like? i just think that i had enough of dull (brown) colour for my background, so i look for a fresher and brighter shades to feast your eyes! do you feel fresher??? heh apa kah dikerepak ku? but i love the layout before tooooo, so dont be surprised if i change it back to the old layout! hehe besides, i think i messed up my turtles' home on the left hand side of the screen. you see my turtles there? no turtles?? yea sometimes they're there, sometimes they wander off onto the sands sampei ilang. heheheh i dont know how to fix the size of the box. ekekekekek okay this is just random rambling on a Thursday afternoon. now i wanna cook my fish. i've been on a fish diet for two weeks. why?? coz i'm just bored of chicken! hehehe and and and i'm watching Harry Potter later in the evening! yipppyyyyy!!! dah boleh beli Harry Potter's dvd collection...! yeayy! sapa sapa rasa mok berik birthday present in advance, sela lah! ekekekekekek

now you see.. now you don't!

toodles!

thank God it's Kuching!

2011-07-08T00:39:00.007+08:00

i am currently in Kuching. been here for the past eight days. before i came back from KL, i had all these keazaman to update my blog and also my FB albums. BUT up til now, i havent done anything to both (this is the first attempt and i'm going off to KL soon). i rarely check the FB and i dont really log on to the blogger! then i start tracing back the root to my laziness/procrastination: when you're away from home, you have nothing else better to do than checking your account every now and then to peek on all the cool stuff thats happening that you're missing out, BUT when you're home, you're THE happening! so you dont really need those alam maya thingy to make you feel good or fill your time, coz you have real people in real time. betol sik???? cepat padah betol! erhh bottomline: my life in KL is dull la eh? you can say so, a bit lah :|

i have a cat name Fasha here. why the name, or how? well this tabby cat has white hair on her toes which makes her look as if 'berpaca'. you know, paca kuku ya bah, nail polish kata urang puteh. so instead of calling her 'Paca', i give class to the name hence 'Fasha'. hehehe bukan sempena Fasha Sanda ok. but then, as the cat grew bigger and older, she becomes ngegeh and very manjak. she's ngegeh around human - she doesnt want human to touch her, she'll run away when you go near her; she's manjak with her mummy and all other cats around - she'll come from whichever angle and poke her head to other cats' head, depan ka blakang ka tepi ka, tang ada ngesel palak nya ke palak pusak nak sekok gik ya. she usually do this to her mum lah. but if you start playing with other cats in front of her, she'll come and poke her head at you too. and thats her being ngegeh + manjak + jealous? and oh ya, she still drinks the milk from her mummy eventhough the milk are meant for the batches below her :| and then..... something happened. Fasha gave birth to three healthy kittens last Monday. at first, she looked like she didnt know what to do with the babies. beranak pun mengarei. first time bah, oo tedah. but when me and my sister put them all together in a box, she cant leave her babies even for a while! she's in the box for almost 90% of the day. she only comes out to eat, she doesnt even drink after eating but walks straight back to her babies!! she is the most loving mother cat we ever had in this house, serious aku janji! sometimes when i purposely flag the food in front of her so she would come out to eat, she ignores the food (mostly she ignores me) and continue being a caring & loving mother instead. so sweet lah u Fasha! but you're still ngegeh, alu jadi macam Fasha Sanda sikit sikit.

fifteen minutes ago i have a few more things on my mind that i want to share, but now, it looks like i forgot the points... hihihihi talk bout short attention span. macam pusak. oh i miss Mickey.

Kuching is so damn naisss!! want to stay here longer and not wanting to go back to KL soon can? pleeeeeease~

praises and gratitude

2011-06-23T19:27:00.001+08:00

i have so many things to be grateful in life. i just finished another presentation two hours ago. another module done for the course. two days ago, when me and my partner started with the prototype, it felt like its a never-ending process of folding and cutting and taping the bits and pieces together. but today after we were done with the prototype, the concept boards and the presentation, it feels unbelievable that we actually did it. and most importantly, we did it on time. Alhamdulillah.. yeay!

i have so many things to be grateful in life. in time of sadness, or confusion, or when the pressure of getting things done in time and at the same time giving out the best is really testing my patience, i have Him to turn to, and everything else in life seems so small compared to the reassurance that i get back. in time of loneliness and when it feels like no one else could actually be there with me and for me, i am grateful that i have my thoughts on Him and i know that He's watching on me and He's taking care of me. at times when others are panicking and running back and forth looking for answers, i got mine from praying to Him, my Creator. thank you Allah for opening my heart. thank you Allah for i am born in a Muslim family. thank you Allah for the faith i have in you. thank you Allah for i will always have you in my life. thank you Allah for everything, everything, everything that i see, touch, feel, listen, think and smell everyday.

lets spend a minute or two and raise our hands to express our gratitude and praises to Him, Allah the al-Mighty, for everything that we have today.

source

i have so many things to be grateful for in life.

we have so many things to be grateful for in life.

hey June!

2011-06-21T12:22:00.001+08:00

helllloooo people!! it is officially a month since my last entry! it has been a very busy one month for me, with many ups and downs of mood swings, well mostly downs. if it does swing up, it only lasted for a moment and i'm back down the slope.. if i could make a graph out of my mood, it think it'll probably look like a drawing with two or three small hills with deep abyss in between. haha ok metaphor. i'm actually still in class, just finished a so-so presentation. standing and talking in front of a crowd always makes me say stuff i regret. HAHAHA lets just say it didnt go that well. ok thinking bout the presentation makes me sad...

will be having term break soon though! now that is something to look forward, right?? now lets get back to more submissions!

Melbourne, part I

2011-05-21T02:36:00.003+08:00

my plane boarded at 6.20am Adelaide time. so we get to see the sunrise while we're in the air. this was the horizon of Australia during the dawn. Subhanallah, pretty isnt it? :') and i like to think that the bulging thingy which create uneven line on the orange background is Ayers Rock, another place i'd really like to visit someday :)

after a 2-hour nap after we got off the plane, went for halal food hunting. and found this Indonesian restaurant, Nelayan. boleh la tahan, lapar tek nak.. and my friend deliberately took this photo with the nyonya at the back. tokay kedei ya katanya..

while we were in Melbourne, the Melbourne International Comedy Festival just started. i saw the TV ad since we were in Adelaide, but not until i watched this ad in our hotel in Melbourne that i realised this people take the festival really seriously in this city!

Melbourne people really have at least one funny bone in their body huh?

the event night. i wanted to walk up that stairs and take photos of the posters, but we were late for a dinner appointment with my cousin. it looks cool right from the outside?

the event venue of the festival at night, side profile.

this was where we're heading for the first dinner in Melbourne. Lythgow Street. this crossroad somehow looks like one which is in Adelaide. the west town or something.. macam dejavu ngan Adelaide jap..

a buliding not far from our hotel. see the blue flags on the right? thats the comedy festival posters yapping in the wind. hehe (these photos are not in timeline order)

the building i admired very much once i laid eyes on it. then it turned out to be a church. the gothic design of the buildings of its kind, the detailing, and how it just stands out from the others, i'm amazed!

just opposite the gothic building: Federation Square. google dikpun apa ada sia k. saya malas. bak kata Apiz when i asked him to google apa tah, "ingat google ya cikgu kah?" oh wait, the buildings are listed on the direction board already. tadaaa!

view of the other side of the river. see those flagss (again)???

Federation Square was also used as one of the venues for the comedy festival. Melbourne is so full of artsy stuff! i very loike lah!

tiba-tiba ada gamba building di waktu siang. yesss this was in the morning, the ones before was during senja. mun Bapak tauk mesti kenak anok main luar waktu Maghrib -_-"

another view of the other side of Yarra River. that is Melbourne Art Centre. macam Eiffel sik? cepat padah aok.

adjacent to the square, is the Spencer Street Train Station.

inside the station. lotsa clock showing the times of the train departing. ada immigrant jual bunga on the right. all the flowers are prettyful! i mean beautyful. i mean beuatiful. b e a u t i f u l lah. mok backspace pun malas dah :|

train route.

this was my first encounter with RMIT sign (at one of the shoplots) when we were busy food hunting for the first time. i stopped for a while to peek on this 'Capitol Theatre' and i thought "emmm kay.. so this is RMIT. should have some classes and offices upstairs lah oo..."

kept on walking and found this building with tonnes of young people lingering around it. muka macam abang ku nang banyak lah. and i wondered whhyy.. where did these people come from? why suddenly your faces are evrywhere? why?

and then i saw this awesome piece of art next to the building above. i still wonder wth.

and then came this building into view, next to the building with the awesome green slime on it. and then terpampanglah RMIT University sign sebesar gajah menempeleng me in the face. and then i monologue dalaman "WHOAH! COOL NYA RMIT!!!!!! (bukan sekadar a shoplot tepi jeraya -____-")" the building with the grenn slime is also RMIT's building. the one with lots of people sitting on the grass is Melbourne Library.

also RMIT.

one of their studios which is visible to pedestrians. it is like half below ground level, if you know what i mean (like this is me looking down on the window). very the cool!

very the cool one more time.

opposite the library. shopping mall with cinema. absolute coolness RMIT tok!

RMIT too.

RMIT again.

ohh.. thats what it stands for..

yea in Australia you can basically drink the water directly from the tap, unless stated otherwise.

tiba-tiba ada gik RMIT di belakang lorong.

summary: RMIT is everywhere. mengarei okay. turn right RMIT, turn left RMIT. its like an open campus university. is that what they call it? or is it city university ka apa oo.. i'll ~~google it~~ ask my dad again cause he did mention bout it once. i think there are more of RMIT photos in my memory card, which i yet to transfer. teeheee! if there are more interesting shots, i'll definitely share it with you guys! :)

now now, lets sleep. coz i have tonnes of assignments due next week! okay that just doesnt go together... part II coming up when i feel like it :D

Tysha Tiar

2011-05-18T21:03:00.001+08:00

just want to share a talent :)

anyone knows her? she's a Kuchingite. who knows if she happens to be a friend's sister, or cousin, or friend, or girlfriend....?? hee if you do, please tell her i wanna see her sing live! :D

i ♥ t-shirt junkie

2011-05-12T22:58:00.000+08:00

i woke up today feeling rather crappy. so i put on my 'I ♥ Melbourne' t-shirt hoping that the thoughts of happy times in Melbourne could cheer me up. and it did! with the help of Oreo McFlurry (on a hazy day) too! :D

ps: sorry this is not the entry bout Melbourne!

on randomness #1

2011-05-06T23:52:00.009+08:00

hey beautiful people! just wanna share random things thats on my mind, or should i say, the things that i actually wanted to post before but very lazy to finish writing the whole thing, so i'll just summarise all (or maybe save some for later :p) in this entry. ok?

i went to Australia recently. Adelaide & Melbourne to be exact. Adelaide is in the south of Australia while Melbourne is an hour (++) flight journey to the east of Adelaide. if i am not mistaken :p the weather was just nice. hot but breezy in the day, while chill but not freezing at night. but you'll wake up with a very cold feet in the morning. so wear those fluffy cute pair winter socks to sleep hokay! :D

i mean these:

told you its fluffy and comel right?? as my feet are experiencing winter all year long during the night, i continue wearing them to sleep here in Malaysia too! haha

morning in Adelaide. in the CBD.

late evening in Adelaide. this is the beautiful Glenelg beach!

night in Adelaide. in the city.

found this poster at a bus stop in Glenelg. notice the punchline: 'Golden Gaytime'? well, i took this because i wanted to show it to Apiz but keep on forgetting. until we both fell in love with krushers last week! it is actually yummms! hehehe definitely golden gaytime!! ;p

the street pianos! this was the one in front of University of Adelaide.

this was the one in Rundle Mall.

and this is the one in Adelaide's Airport! and one more thing bout the airport, people can send the passengers off til the boarding gate!! like even if you're not going to board the plane, you can still walk in, go through all the security checkpoint and send off your family or friends till the gate e.g. gate 7, gate 24, gate R (Kuching Intl Airport ada gate R)! how awesome is that??? :D

eh. malas dah mok cita bout Melbourne. hehe coz i wanna share lotsa photos i took in Melbourne. i'll ~~save it for later~~ share it with you guys in a latter post okay? like you care kan if i post it or not. hehe prasan jeh ;p lemme just say, as much as i super love the streets i walked up and down in Melbourne, the cold weather so i have the chance to wear my leather jacket (ahah!), the interconnected shopping malls and the free city circle tram, like i said before, nothing tops a salam given to me by a stranger upon entering the tram to St. Kilda beach :) her smile affected my mood, and her salam affected my soul, til this day. i might sound like i'm exaggerating, but i was desperate for a hint of familiarity after six days being in a foreign country where you scrutinies every ingredient of each meal. it was an amazing feeling, i felt recognised and it made me feel that i wasnt alone :') after experiencing such a huge impact on the street of Melbourne and knowing how a simple salam could help someone feel much much better, i say it out to strangers at every chance that i got in Melbourne, the Muslim ones of course :) and having them answering the salaam, it just clicked in my heart that someone else in this foreign land believes in what i believe, and i smile to myself while continuing my walk :) :) :)

lets move on to a cute situation. cute? erghh. ok you decide if its cute after you read this conversation:

one fine evening, we were in the car, i was wearing my purple contact lens, a few days after Apiz's 25th birthday...

Apiz: Atenn...nangga dunia sik jadi rona purple ka?

Aten: haaa?? (i thought he was berbual kosong and trying to be cute..)

Apiz: smua-smua tok, urang. sik jadi rona purple kaa?

Aten: (gave him the stare for 2 seconds...) aie aoklah semua tok jadi rona purple (i played along lah konon)

Apiz: aih MENA KAH??

Aten: aiee.. (i realised he was asking innocently) aoklah semua urang jadi rona purple kedak Barney. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Apiz: ????????

Aten: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA (tetak goleng-goleng.. ok tipu coz sekpat goleng dalam motor)

awwwesome! - Barney Stinson

on a slightly different note, i came across this short film just now, it is somewhat sad. but this used to be my number one fear once upon a time, before i started dating anyone, before i like Apiz :) i used to think 'what if it didnt work out? would we say 'hi' if we bump into each other on the street afterwards? would it feel awkward if i see him holding someone else's hand when he was supposed to hold mine?' i pray hard that we wont be strangers ever, in the future. InsyaAllah :) now seat back and watch this. pssst.. you might need a piece or two of tissues to wipe those crocodile tears.

i like the butterflies in the stomach part the best! Alhamdulillah the butterflies in mine & Apiz's stomach are still flying around happily and i think they doubled their amount by 10000000x :D (mainly coz of the growing size of our tummies! kidding!) and recently Apiz claimed that he has butterflies in his legs. maybe it bears the same meaning as jelly legs kan? hihihi i am glad that although Apiz is now 25, he still acts like a five-year-old boy sometimes :p

now lets soothe it out and call it a day with this video. i love that Yuna involves Qi in every opportunity that she could get. then again, she was thinking of him anyways when she wrote this right? ;)

if only i could make one of those love notes fall on Apiz's shoulder now, wherever he might be :)

i need you

2011-05-05T23:17:00.000+08:00

i need you. mentally and emotionally, not only physically. i'm exhausted and miserable, and the thought of you somehow helps flip my mood a bit. but it'll be way way better to have YOU here, all eyes and ears and heart on me, even just for a minute :(

*sigh*

its all about the dress

2011-04-30T03:28:00.002+08:00

heyyy! so did you watch the royal wedding? i did! glued in front of the TV from 1230pm till 9pm. and i did skipped class too. hehe it is a rare occasion right? so i did what i have to do :p its just a crit session in my class today, anyways, and i did my crit on Monday, so i think i'm good *confidence!*

some may not give a damn on the event, some may think its a waste of time watching it. but not me. coz, again, it is rare right???!!! how many times in your life could you watch a wedding procession like that? like how you ask? hah! sapa suroh sik tangga! sik mok cita! your loss :p lemme just say, Catherine's dress was G.O.R.G.E.O.U.S! it has the look of a traditional wedding dress, but at the same time it still has the elements of present-day flair. just see for yourself:

the train. not as long as Diana's, which i think is good. this one is already looking heavy, i wonder how Diana managed to walk pulling that long train behind her. sik sakit ka bahu or is it palak, or kaki??

(see more photos of the dress here!)

the maid-of-honour is Pippa, Kate's sister. and her dress is stunning as well!! ohh love!
(read bout the dress being almost similar to Grace Kelly's here!)

oh so beautiful laces and neckline.. and cute little flower girl covering her ears cause of the aircrafts that were flying over their heads :D *correction: the girl was disturbed by the roaring sound of the crowd cheering for the newlywed couple to kiss! (edited)*

(more beautiful shots here!)

look at the detailing at the bottom of the dress! and the silhouette is just perfect for her :)

(just click ok!)

Pippa looks ravishing in this dress :D

(i think Harry kinda flirt with her..?)

lets not forget the adorable bridesmaids and handsome pageboys!

(more of their faces here!)

oh and the bride did her own makeup too. now do we need to start talking bout the hats?

*edited - 2/5/2010 0013hrs*

spread the 'ilm

2011-04-23T03:23:00.001+08:00

i have stuff to blog about, but i cant find the time. cause i'm currently busy with my assignments and having fun (hehehe) and the stuff is maybe a bit too long. its already in the draft box, part of it. tapi belom abis.. hehe in the mean time, i wanna share a link:

www.syahirul.com

a blog which, InsyaAllah will make you think, and move your soul :) i'll give you a sneak peek:

"Barangsiapa yang mengiginkan pelindung, maka Allah cukup baginya.

Barangsiapa yang menginginkan teladan, maka Rasulullah cukup baginya.

Barangsiapa yang menginginkan pedoman hidup, maka Al-Quran cukup baginya.

Barangsiapa yang menginginkan peringatan, maka kematian cukup baginya.

Dan barangsiapa tidak cukup dengan semua itu, maka neraka cukup baginya."

so, enjoy reading. happy weekend! :)

ps: congratulations to those who are getting married soon, or has ALREADY gone through the solemnization recently. today was Ida's day! and Aizat & his beloved wife Balqis :) and Jal & Wani too ;)

chamomile & lavender

2011-04-02T19:51:00.000+08:00

a humble salam given by a stranger on the street warms my heart instantly in this foreign land :)

Sheila in Adelaide!

2011-03-29T13:12:00.002+08:00

what i found in the underpass to Adelaide railway station:

isn't it fun??? :D

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another amazing term

2011-03-25T21:22:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah. another 3months of studying ID have passed. i think 3D autocad was my BIGGEST challenge this term, and the pain i suffered during the finale week was an experience i will not forget. the long hours spent in the hospital bearing the pain while my mind panicked at every tick if the clock coz i wasnt even close to 50% done with my assignment which was due less in 2 days! and then as i heard the good news from the doctor, i rushed back to my work only to be tortured by the ununderstandable command of autocad. haha you know what i mean :p i almost gave up for the subject at 3am this morning. there was no one that i could ask at that time of the day. the closest hope i have was Abang. i thought maybe i can cry abit in front of him then he'll do it for me. yippy! but im not that shallow people :) i googled the 'how to', and i even look up on youtube. but i was hopeless. i keep on praying to Allah so i can go through this not-so-big-of-a-deal-come-to-think-of-it unfortunate event of my student life. hihi guess what! minutes later, i got an ilham! yes, Allah help open up my memory in this little brain of mine to recall back how my lecturer once taught us how to make it works. and yes i got it! talk bout the power of do'a :') Alhamdulillah...

another term break is here. and i am up for lotsssa fun and new stuff! hope everything goes well. InsyaAllah :)

till then, until i write again! :D

ps: Dearie, i miss u already!

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uplifting

2011-03-06T01:16:00.000+08:00

12 year old Australian boy who memorised the Quran at the age of 10 imitating the Imams. MashaAllah :'))

good old songs

2011-03-05T21:02:00.003+08:00

hey! have you ever walk into a retail store, or a restaurant especially a cafe and then your favourite song is on the speaker? so you stay in the shop pretending u'r browsing through the things that u dont really give a damn just to listen to the song til the end. (omg 'this I promise you' is on air right now) especially when they are songs that would bring back HAPPPPPPYY memories!!! :D :D and the best thing is the good old songs keep on coming and you think you will never get out of the store/restaurant/cafe until you listen to the whole playlist. so have you ever???? well I am experiencing it right now. and I am never getting up from this chair :D

ps: maybe I should just ask if I can have a copy of the playlist??

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listen.feel.love

2011-02-28T19:40:00.001+08:00

greetings people.

so i am in this melancholy state right now. i woke up with this smile on my face, only its upside down. i woke up by the harsh unpalatable dream, which might be caused from the way i took off to the lala land last night. or maybe my paranoia was translated into the dream? so the uneasy feeling from the night before has dragged me to the state that i am right now, affecting my sleep and affecting my mood, and definitely affecting the people around me when i'm walking around with a frown.

''you broke my heart"

i fear those words. i think that would be the words i want to hear last in my entire life. cause i heard it once, said to me by a dear friend. and it broke my heart that someone i cared a lot uttered something like that to my face, when i didnt know exactly what i did to do such damage to her. but i believed her, that she was heartbroken because of something i might accidentally did to her without realising it. and i was very very sorry for it, i still am sorry today. as i said, it was heartbreaking as well to know that i just broke someone's heart, especially when it is someone i care so much about. so i tried so much in my life not to say those four words to anyone. eventhough if it means my heart will be crushed and stamped over and over again. but i have my limit, we all do. so right now i want that one person to know that, 'you broke my heart' and i'm truly sorry that i have to tell you so. but it does really hurt that i wanted to drop down at your feet and cry my heart out. i have so many things to tell you but i know you wont listen. making you listen, and fail would add up to the number of pieces that my heart was already broken into. dont say i didnt try, cause i did. yes you heard me but you dont listen to what i'm saying. you look at me but you dont really see whats in front of you. you said you get me but you dont really try to understand how it feels inside.

i used to be this reserved person, a very private person. if someone really knows that side of me, i think it would be Asha. i dont know why, but i like to personalise my things. i like to keep my feelings and emotions inside to myself, far far away from the world to know. a friend once said i hide my emotions really well that it doesnt show on my face whether i have problem or if my heart is hurting. i always had my calm face on me, though my mind and my heart sang a different story. i am still that person today, maybe a bit if not much. i still want my life to be kept private as much as i could. i still dont want the whole world to know everything about me. cause i only want those who really know me and want to know me to really know me beneath the surface. i dont easily open up to people. i'm a pistanthrophobic. but once i let you into my world, i wont easily forget you, and i'll show you around my humble and colourful world. i'll share my candies with you, we can hug and hold hands, we can kiss and i promise wont tell, we can colour each others' hair, i will tell you everything you want to know about me, i will put your name next to mine as the co-owner of this bubbly world of ours. if you're honest, you'll stay. but if you're only in for a price, i woudnt want to look at you even if you come with a free gift.

but after you broke my heart, i am kind of being pushed back harshly into my shell. the colourful surrounding starts to fade a little. some has turned into gray. i am scared of what our world would become tomorrow with us not holding hands skipping across the valley together. i still want to catch butterflies in the park with you, i still want you to sleep on my shoulder, i always want us to be happy forever. but you're not doing the tango right.

can we polish up our steps and sway gracefully across the garden again, please?

Salvador Dali

2011-02-23T22:30:00.001+08:00

i'm in the middle of my final project assignment right this minute. but i cant help but to share this video with you guys. i'm actually torn between Dali and Gaudi for my 'inspiring designer' presentation tomorrow. but then i decided to go with this insanely eccentric guy.

i am in love with this guy. like seriously. hahaha enjoy!

on the go

2011-02-18T11:46:00.001+08:00

I thought I would have more time to blog (and do my assignments) in Kuching, but nope! so I missed the pleasure of having good internet connection. heh! and I only enjoyed Kuching during the 2 last days of my stay! -_-"

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what i found on tumblr

2011-02-12T15:24:00.002+08:00

i was blogwalking on tumblr and i found these:

(source: petisuara)

so what are your words?

mine: naked, hate & malice. hahaha

(source: google image)

yeah, i have the malice instinct of psychologically torturing Apiz sometimes. but i did it in the most lovable way that you like it right dear?? -_-'' sorry dearie..

and this one, is somehow true in the strangest kinda way, and no matter how hard we try to deny it, it is the reality. tell me what you think.

WHEN YOUR FRIENDSHIP WITH SOMEONE IS SLOWLY FADING,

AND YOU JUST SIT BACK AND WATCH/READ

ABOUT ALL THE FUN THEY HAVE

WITH THEIR NEW FRIENDS ON FACEBOOK:

(source: petisuara)

so true, right? still,i dont want to lose any friends. i miss my beloved five besties so bad right now. i miss all the six of us hanging out together. to Sheila, Asha, Ina, Mym & Wani, no matter what happens i love you girls to pieces, and i still want you girls to be there on my wedding day, and on all the important days of my life, for you girls were a part of me that have somehow helped shape me of the person who i became today, and you girls are still a part of me, for always.

*group HUG pleasseee!*

i'll update more soon!

love strong

2011-01-31T20:04:00.000+08:00

the first time i heard the term 'love strong' was when a childhood friend of mine asked a few years after we havent met each other, 'kitak masih ka dengan Hafiz?' (i think that was somewhere in 2003-2004. i think.) and i said 'aok masih.' and then she said 'waaaa love strong eh' that was my first time hearing the term love strong. never heard of it before, i thought in my head 'aiee salah padah ka apa nya tok. strong love la. ekekek' kira tetak ngan urang la tek. haish sik senonoh perangei, padahal dikpun yang naive. ekekekek tetak ngan dikpun gik. and then i learned the true meaning of the the term.

even my nenek also know how to use it ok. this happened a few years back.

Nek Wan: iboh suroh Razi betunang lamak gilak bah. setaun lamak gilak ya.

Mak: aie apa jak mek duak Junai dolok duak taun.

Nek Wan: eeeey kitak duak ya lain. kitak duak ya lep (love) strong!

sapa sik tekejut nenek i kelaka gia. haaaaa! lep strong sungguh nenek ku.

the reason why i'm yapping bout love strong today is... do you realise the dancing couple on the right hand side of your screen has moved to the number 12? yeeeepy! the couple will be swaying back to number 1 tomorrow! oh yessss we are turning a year older and more in love tomorrow! its our eleventh year fellas :)

i'm not gloating on how 'love strong' (heh. is that how we use it?) we are, but i am sure my love for Apiz is strong enough to take down my wall of ego and his love that i feel is strong enough that i want to be a better person when i'm with him.

Apiz dear, its been a while since i tell the world I Love You :)

Happy Birthday & Happy Anniversary, Sayang!

reviving

2011-01-24T19:06:00.001+08:00

this is Najwa Latif. check her out yeah. most of her videos are done in the car, which is kinda cute when you think of it :)

horcrux

2011-01-23T13:49:00.000+08:00

(source: hannarabittah)

berhenti berharap

2011-01-22T15:01:00.001+08:00

i love you so dearly, and i know you love me back. but you dont know how to jaga my hati, and that is very heartbreaking :'(

so so so tired of being disappointed. being let down. being betrayed. being cunningly lied to. but because i only have good thoughts about people that i did what i did. i trust you, and this is what i get. sometimes i feel like going so so so far away from you, to make you realise how it feels for me not to be close and around. but i dont think thats the best way out of this mess. you might not even realise that i am gone. so maybe it is a wake up call. no more high hopes on you. yes, you can finally have your back rest cause i no longer want you to do anything for me, with me. may you find your way, and i find mine.

bye.

my person

2011-01-21T21:28:00.001+08:00

this is a love message to one of the many owners of 21st January - but she is super extraordinary special coz she is my person, she is Shasheila Daud!

one year ago :)

over the years, we have been through thick and thin. we've been through hell and back again. we laughed, we cried, we fought, we hugged, and most importantly we survived it all! i just want you to know that you have been an amazing friend to me throughout the decade. you have taught me alot whether you realise it or not. i think my favourite moment with you is the one in Singapore where you dragged your bag down a so-called 3degrees hill and your bag went tergoleng-goleng and you were ngerepok at the same time and there was an orang puteh looking on. lets relive that moment shall we? aaaah i'm being a bad friend for liking that moment ;( but that is just so you!!! with your words coming out of your mouth tumbling into each other. heh i can laugh to sleep lah like this remembering all the words you said.

(ok right now i'm giggling to myself remembering that night you called Apiz 'boss')

apart from having babbling disorder, i look at you as a rational person. so you're a funny wise person. wow! superb combination dont you think? just dont mess up the prescription or that report thing you do in front of a patient like the ones in Grey's Anatomy ok! you've been a great listener, and i really hope i could be one for you too. i might do a button for you for that, kannnn??

other than that, you are one super cool travel mate! lets go travel some moreee!

i wish you all the luck in the world for your final year being a med student!! may you be surrounded with all the happiness and love throughout the year to keep your spirit high! and may you'll always be under His guidance and protection. Amin :) hope you had a blast kebaboom silver birthday!

xoxo, you know i love you!

*hugggggss*

yes you

2011-01-16T01:46:00.001+08:00

right this moment, i am missing so many person, so many things, so many memories.

i miss the girl whom i confide in back then. i miss crossing the road while holding my bestfriend's hand. i miss zaman Parkson-TJ-SP. i miss the girls night out. i miss listening to Maroon 5 in the car with the girls. i miss camwhoring at that gelato cafe opposite Hilton (whats its called, again?). i miss the girl who picked fight with me. i miss having familiar faces around. i miss the adolescent innocence. i miss the potluck party. i miss school memories. i miss the evening sunshine. i miss that night i travelled alone back from Melaka. i miss hugging Ina. i miss aikido. i miss having someone i know living overseas. i miss the smell of the first birthday present Apiz gave me. i miss birthday cards. i miss the 16 year old me. i miss the 20 year old Apiz. i miss everything and everyone. i even miss doing what i did today.

if you're reading this, yes you random reader. if we have a memory together, even one tiny bit of a smirk or a wink, i miss you. yes, YOU :) :) :)

i'm a red-head now : part II

2011-01-07T15:25:00.001+08:00

as for 2011. one great way to start a year is: a wedding! my roomate back in UIA Matric Centre got married on 1.1.11. i am very the very happy for her~ she was my partner in crime back in the Matric years. i used to sleep over at her beautiful place in Sungai Buloh. even if i dont, she would pick me up at the hostel and bring me around. she gave me the very first lesson driving in KL! she showed me around, she taught me alot. we also went out shopping with the exact same top once! haha

Ainil, the beautiful bride. the week before her ceremony, she sent out a note to all her guests to request us all wear white on that day if we have any. in the western countries, it is almost disrespectful for a guest, let alone guestS, to wear white on a wedding reception, cause only the bride gets to wear the colour on that day. but not Ainil. for her, the whiter the better. she wanted everyone to blend in together in whiteness that day! Ainil, your combination with Elly is ravishing, babe! deeply happy from the bottomest of my heart for both of you~

after years of driving in KL, i had my 1st accident. yup yup yup! i chose 1.1.11 to have an accident. i knocked the pillar of my parking lot in my apartment. hahahahaha i dont simply knock other people ok. i accident sorang-sorang jak. hahaha

i was worried sick on Monday night. thinking bout my 1st class for this semester on the next day. because i'll be joining my seniors. up 3 batches senior. and i'm the only one from my batch. konon i'm the super junior in the class la. i'm worried if there's a group or pair work, i'll have no one to pair up with coz i dont know anyone. and of course they already have their own clique. i almost wanted to drop the subject. but i think again, that lame reason is not worth my time. so on my way to the class, i keep on praying to Allah to keep me strong and make the class possible for me. and once i sat inside, Alhamdulillah. everything was fine :) the senior didnt turn up so creepy. i even sat next to the super senior. but then again, i guess in terms of age, i'm the sensei. hahaha now bow to me you little children! the power of doa...

and then... after the class ended, i was rushing my way to Sri Pentas in Bandar Utama. they opened up a counter giving away the tickets away for free at 11am. i want the Anugerah Juara Lagu tickets soooooo badd!!! every possible circumstances popped into my mind. like: its a working day, rilek lah. sikda urang ngambik tiket ya bah. so i relaxed. driving dengan bergaya cool. and then the clock shows 10.45am and i'm already at TTDI area. i thought 'hmmmm gik awal. maybe i could go for a drink sekejap. kekekeke' tetak sorang ingat dah berjaya tahap duduk VVIP seat. and then something clicked into my cute brain 'rami gilaaaaaaa kot people requesting for the ticket. and they're giving it for free, and its limited. people WOULD skip coffee time and drive to Sri Pentas and get those tickets!!!!! especially Malaysian. no drinks for me. MUST GO NOW' then i start driving like a makcik looking for the entrance to Sri Pentas. i got a parking at around 10.55am. and there is already a loooooooooooooooong queue outside the Balai Pengawal. i panicked! double park pun double park la! 'mudahan pakcik somet sik menyaman urang time tok', i prayed. i joined merriment. and i prayed to God i can get those tickets. dipendekkan cerita, doa saya dimakbulkan, lagi. Alhamdulillah :) :) :)

so i am going to watch Yuna perform afterall. and Shahir, and Black and Tomok, and Adila, ~~and Fazial Tahir~~. yay!

2011. two thousand ELEVEN. so.very.special. i'm lost of words. how do i say this. this year, my relationship with Apiz turns ELEVEN. yup. that'll happen in less than a month. Alhamdulillah :'') who would have thought? not me. yes my initial intention was, mun dah start begerek ya, make sure klak kawen ngan nya, konon becinta sampai ke jinjang pelamin (ewah) sampei beranak pinak sampei ke Syurga, as in no tukar2 boyfriend from the very 1st one, yes thats exactly what happened. but i never imagine how it would make me feel to get this far. i am so very grateful to Allah SWT. Alhamdulillah. thank you Allah. the power of doa, kannn :) :) :')

i guess 2011 will be a memorable year, as lots and lots and lots of friends have chosen this year to tie the knot. Ainil did it. my graceful Sarah got engaged and will be married later this year. and a few number of friends have started sending out invitations as well. and some are already battling the stress metre on wedding preparations.

Sarah & her fiancé

(source: Facebook. ekekekeke)

so i guess the year full of love is finally here~ spread the love people. for those who are still single and available, maybe this is the year you'll be lucky in love. for those who are single but attached, we're in the same boat babes! keep the love growing and pray for the best! for those engaged and waiting to get married, this would be the time to spend all out with your parents and siblings before you got another responsibility on your shoulder! for those who are married, hey make lotsa babies will ya! tadaa! free horoscope for everyone!

now, i have a pesanan to all my sisters in Islam, and also to myself, tips on how to stay attractive and beautiful for the rest of our lives :)

1. To beautify your eyes: lower your gaze towards strange men, this will make your eyes pure and shiny.

2. To beautify your face and make it shiny: keep doing wudhu minimum five times a day.

3. To have attractive lips: always mention Allah and remember to speak the truth.

4. As for blush and rouge: “modesty” (haya’) is one of the best brands and it can be found in any of the Islamic centers.

5. To remove impurities from your face and body: use a soap called “istighfar” (seeking forgiveness of Allah) this soap will remove any bad deeds.

6. Now about your hair: if any if you has a problem of hair split ends, then I suggest “islamic hijab” which will protect your hair from damage.

7. As for jewelry: beautify your hands with humbleness and let your hands be generous and give charity to the poor.

8. To avoid heart disease: forgive people who hurt your feelings.

9. Your necklace should be a sign to pardon your fellow brothers and sisters.

If your follow these advices given to you by the Creator, you will have a beautiful and attractive inner and outer appearance :) inshaAllah.

source: islamisbeautiful.tumblr.com

ps: oh yaa. these two posts have nothing to do with me being a red-head. i'm not a red-head. suka-suka polah title propaganda. hehe although i always wanted to colour my hair red ever since. ok stop. more yapping soon!

i'm a red-head now : part I

2011-01-06T22:43:00.015+08:00

note: the initial post was a bit too long, so i have to split it into two parts, before you guys quit on me half way. this part I is pretty long as well, but please bear with me!!!!

happy 2011 y'all!!!

its already been 6 days into the new year, and i havent conclude my 2010 like most people did. mostly because i'm ~~lazy~~ busy, busy catching up with TV shows. hehehe huh what a way to start a year kan! haha

my 2010 has been a year full of new findings, knowledge and discovery. like yesteryears, i learn alot. but 2010, was the greatest teacher so far. so my laziness continue, i'll just pinpoint my highlights of the year

being unemployed for half a year. come to think bout it, what the heck did i do huh??? i remembered, the first few months i was hunting for a potential college/uni for me to pursue my ID. then when i finally found Raffles, Mak asked me to postponed my enrollment cause she needed me to help her with Abang's wedding preparations. so i did. and for months before Abang's big day, i went from one bridal shop to another to survey their promotions and what not. that was stressful, like SERIOUSLY! and i thank God that Mak asked me to help her. i cant imagine if Mak was the one who's running here and there and dealing with all the stresses and Abang's demand and all. pity her, dont you think? and also thank God they didnt leave the catering to me as well. if i were in charge of that one as well, i think i cry for three days before calling the caterer. apa kah? my point is, wedding preparation is a really tedious task. its tiring but at the same time its fun, for me. and after it is all done, i feel like i just achieved something big, although i think i only helped like 40%. but again, it is stressful, til the stage that you feel like you wana get out of the country and go somewhere serene and relaxing to take you head off things. i guess that was exactly why they invent the 'honeymoon' tradition right? to clear the bride & groom's heads after months of wedding preparation? but if the bride & groom is not involve with the preparation, can the wedding planner goes for a vacation instead? perhaps planning a wedding for ourself is not as tedious? coz you get to choose and decide on your own. but doing it for others, you're only the middle person. you get one quotation from this person, and you have to ask for the approval of the groom/bride, then there's the meeting with the minister of finance some more. kan?? ehi panjang la pulok.

i clearly remember, this was the moment when i realised 'i did it! everything went smoothly, Alhamdulillah :')' tangga dah besinsin dah yours truly.

i learned how to bake cupcakes! and made some $$ out of it :)

my very first attempt on baking and decorating cupcakes! :D

i got into Raffles! and made some new friends. and met a person which thinks almost similarly like me, in a way. that's my lecturer. this lecturer of mine, is very inspiring i tell you. especially on the first class, he'll like motivated us to go out, to see the world, to experience spaces, to feel the atmosphere, to indulge in the ambience, to not sit at home and just google everything, to get our lazy bums off the chair and walk walk walk run run run go go go wherever you can go. thrice! he did it thrice. once in his class last term, and twice in his two classes yesterday!!! i feel like going to Singapore again, already. or Manila, or Bangkok? Bangkok again? isnt Bangkok is so last yearrr?? NO! (btw, i'm designing retail spaces this term. meaning: i'm designing SHOPS with clothes, or shoes, or bags, or umbrellas, or body care products,you get what i mean. meaning: got to experience the spaces. meaning: SHOPPING MALLS here i come! meaning: FUN FUN FUN!!)

i met and fell in love with Mickey (who is sleeping at my feet while i write this)

Mickey, disaat mula-mula perkenalan. maseh malu-malu gik time tok.

Mickey, the true colour.

i discovered the high fashion phenomena which was already going on for a while here in KL. or maybe in other parts of Malaysia too. but my tempurung is not fully opened, so i cant see passed KL yet. ngehehe most importantly, these people wear the tudungs/scarves/shawls/selendangs!! now, who say you cant be fashionable if you're wearing hijab?? just dont get it wrong, hijab is not a fashion. hijab is supposedly to be something you are attached to from within, then you make your hijab fashionable and make your own style out of it :)

i learned that the car Smart Fortwo CAN be extended. check this out:

Apiz: Smart Fortwo dapat extend, tauk kah?
Aten: extend apa?
Apiz: extend lah. tambah pintu. mun ada duit lebeh, pegi kedei, extend tambah 2 gik pintu, jadi Smart Forfour.
Aten: aieeeeeeeee! menaaa kah?? *mata bersinar2 dah time tok mendengar information yang menarik*
Apiz: aok lah. kakya mun ada duit gik, extend gik. extend gik. sampei jadi bas!
*TOING* Apiz pelantin 30 kaki kenak side kick oleh Aten.

i seriously thought he was serious -.-" coz Apiz is not the one who usually give this kinda ridiculuos information. usually, he says one dumbest word at a time, like calling me with his own name. so full of himself kan? imagine klaka ngan dirikpun kali. i love you more already, baby!

wooopps nampak ketiak ktk yang.. kucikucikuuuu~ keletek ketiak nya...

not forgetting my superb birthday!!!

i got to experience Balinese spa! muahahaha i forgot to tell you in my birthday entry, that a spa treatment was one of my birthday presents! hihihi it was awesomeness! especially the Balinese scrub. you want??? silalah pegi ke Bali ataupun Thailand sekarang.

lebeh kurang mcm tok lah tek. yerdeh. alu nak imagine i topless you people tok..

·i fall back in love with Yuna. i used to like her back in 2008, but then something happened that made me pull myself away from her. maybe i’ll save the story for another day. but for now, i’m back on being her supporter, publicly.

got to spend the last few days of December with family. we went to Singapore to see the Christmas' deco. and I-City for the new year's eve night. we didnt wait til 12am though, coz everyones pretty exhausted already. countdown with TV2, and watched KLCC's fireworks from our apartment! it feels good really :) lemme feast your eyes with the photos. ngahaha

Singapore - christmas night

yes. i walked around in Singapore wearing slepar jepon. ya jak comfortable -.-

super love this moment!!! makan-ice-cream-one-dollar moment

vibrant colour of flowers~ loike!

Mickey is afraid of that green thing. recognise it?

my dady kool & mama kool

yeah i went to Genting in a dress. while queing for the cable car, i got lots of stares from the people around me. their faces were like 'wth r u thinkin goin here wearing a dress????' i throw back a face which said 'helllllo Genting! i'm here!! now where's the beach?' why is it that when a girl wears a comfortable light flowy dress, she has to go to the beach?? 'duh! of course la i'm not that bimbo go play space shot wearing a dress. like hellllo? tok ku melesit skit daie ko.

i-City, Shah Alam

i am proud of myself for taking this pica. muahahahahah!

it is seriously an awesome place. a must go if anyone of you are in the viccinity of KL or Selangor. serious menyesal mun sik pegi, i got several of 'sik sangka ada tempat camtok wujud di Malaysia' after they saw my collection of photos. and Sheila, next time you're in KL and you want me to teman you to go here, i'll be more than pleased to go with you! :D and oh! sik ada antu the night i went there ok. you guys who believed ada antu di siya are so gullible. ngahahah *ehem* and the best part of it was, there was a congregational prayer (sembahyang berjemaah) for Maghrib and Isya' organised that night, at the open air, surrounded by the colourful trees. ada lah dalam 4 5 saf urang join sembahyang :') and while waiting for Isya', they didnt put on a loud music to fill the air, but instead an ustaz gave a good ceramah agama, very suitable for all visitors, not only Muslims :)

i think Farhana got it wrong. i said put on a funny face, not a cute face.

all in all, 2010 was awesome and legendary!! the whole year was a rollercoaster of emotions. and nothing, nothing that i am not grateful of. i'm a firm believer of 'everything happens for a reason' or 'ada hikmah disebalik apa yang berlaku'. yes i really do believe in it, so this is me full of gratitude to Allah SWT for a great year. Alhamdulillah..

to be continued ...

live fashion love music

2010-12-25T03:37:00.003+08:00

first and foremost: Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah i'm done with term two ID!!! finish one semester. less than two years to go. the feeling is indescribable. as long as i havent submitted my works to the lecturers, hati belom boleh menangis kegembiraan and kesyukuran, only can nangis kebingungan and ketensionan. the minute i handed them all over, there were fireworks bergabung and meletup in the heart, and yes i did cry one or two tears of happiness. Alhamdulillah :')) marilah kita menyanyi bersama dahulu sebelom i start rambling in this bahasa rojak entry..

Alhamdulillah.. pujian bagi Allah

Subhanallah.. maha suci Allah

Allahu akhbar.. Allah maha besar

segala puji hanya bagi Allah

bila dipuji kejayaan kita

sebenarnya bukan milik kita

oleh itu sedarlah sentiasa

semuanya dari Allah

[ haaaaaa! ingat sik lagu ya? i love Raihan's songs! their lyrics are super catchy. sangat sesuai untuk nembiak kecik nak belajar nak ngapal the basic vital bits of Islam. another song i always have in my head is lagu 25 Rasul, singing it is the way i memorise all the 25 names :) ]

so, i've been meaning to write an entry bout me going to the Yuna vs. Hana event like right after i got back home from it. TAPI!! 1-final submission in a week (then)!! ; 2-malas. maseh super excited (then) sampei tangan trembling dont know what to write. ewah! ; 3-naaahh. only 2 reasons. hehe

my main aim and reason to go to the event was to watch Yuna perform. as i told you guys before, i've been waiting and waiting and waiting for Yuna's next performance. i missed quite a number before. her album launching, her performance in Aswara; and Yuna vs. Hana was my next hope! TAPI! i didnt get to see her this time either. veryyy disappointed and heartbroken. for the record, i loike Yuna's songs. i love what she's doing for our local music industry. i admire her songwriting and her voice and her talent strumming the guitar, and i want to see her sing live as many times as i could. the last time i watch her performed live was at Urbanscape last year. though i sound like a fanatic fan, i dont really look forward into meeting her. macam, sik jumpa face to face salam salam pun sikpa. yang penting, i watch her sing hidup-hidup depan mata! paham? so, very the disappointed lah sikpat masok into the black box and watch her sing. i redha, masih bukan rezeki to watch Yuna perform.

there was a meet and greet session after Yuna performed and Hana showcased her designs. i think there were like 300-400 people there at the event, and everyone was lining up to take photos with the duo. me and my two friends didnt want to join the line first, what we did? we bantai makan cupcakes and cakes that they served on the table. penuh jak mulut dgn chocolate cake, kakya kelakar ngan urang. sungguh tidak graceful -,-'' we havent had our lunch ok that day, and that was already around 5pm. all because we wanted to be there early to get in the black box tapi sik dapat juak. owh ya, sesat juak before that. pergi to the other Solaris. heh. nang dugaan ariya. nonetheless, i did take a couple of photos with Yuna. still, taking photos with her is not enough to compensate the loss of not watching her sing :(

about the crowd. there are tonnnnnes of beautiful ladies at the event. and 99% of them wear the hijab. for single men (yang belom ada gf SAHAJA!) yang nak mencari jodoh (para mak nak carik jodoh pakei anak boleh juak), mungkin boleh betemu ngan potential spouse di sini ya. haha tapi hati-hati, coz ada juak nak kacak cun melecun sebenarnya dah kawen and ada yang dah beranak pinak. but thats exactly my point, beautiful ladies with hijab at each and every corner you turn your head. i think you rarely found this kinda event elsewhere in Malaysia. and most of them dressed up very daringly almost like you're watching the girls in Upper East Side of Gossip Girls. yerdeh! some of the fashionistas are familiar, they are bloggers - fashionista bloggers - which i often stalk. hehehe for me lah, these bloggers which i usually see their photos only on my laptop screen, when meeting them in real life, macam jumpa artis jak. ekekekek macam malu-malu mok tegur. daknya famous, semua orang kenal. macam ya la lebeh kurang. kekekeke and because of my malu-ness, i didnt have the courage to greet them and ask if i can snap a photo with them. except for one! tok pun because macam dah terkantoi mala jak terjelin-jelin ngan nya. and sekali ya nya tertangga i menjelin nya. akakakak malu sik malu, tanyak jak la. nang dah malu pun. hehehe so this is Pka!

rasanya i only saw her face a few time which is very minimal counts, tapi sekali tangga terus ingat muka nya. krana, sejujurnya nya cute. haha i think i kinda have a girl crush on her. ahaha and it is very sweet of her to publish our photo on her tumblr. check out this frenzy girl pronto! Pka, if you're reading this, talking to you is my highlight of the day. not even taking photo with Yuna can top it up! :D kan i said i have a girl crush on her.

(source: countthethread.)

check out her outfit.

ps: we've got the same shoes (in diff shades)! :D

so i guess thats my summary of the event. mun ada papa i ter-ingat balit klak which i want to share, i will add up later on lah k! for more photos of the beautiful hijabis, feel free to visit countthethread. i think her photos best explain the crowd. (sebenarnya malas mok carik blog lain yang ada photos as good. or maybe she's the only one. hmmm) all in all, it was an exciting event, and one good experience for 2010 closing :)

till then, i have a flight to catch in 3 hours. havent sleep yet tonight, coz excited nak blogging coz dah lamak sikda entry (bak kata Apiz) and dah lamak tangan berbulu nak write an entry bout this. now i better wake everybody up so rumah ini ada sedikit kamboh i nak ke airport. ngahahaha! (harus ngereco sikit lekak abis sigek semester!)

long overdue love story

2010-12-20T00:27:00.000+08:00

Friday, 10.12.10 :

i was in the bookstore today

i was damn sure you were not with me

cause i came alone

but somehow i could smell your perfume

i thought to myself, someone else here must have worn the same brand as you

and then i sensed it again

i looked around

no one just passed by, especially not you

just the same people standing nearby - same bunch of women

i continued reading

again, i sensed it

i tried to get closer to the person next to me

in case she was the one who sent those scent to my nostrils

nope, not her

i moved to another station

and then i think your scent was following me

i kept looking back as i smell the familiar fragrance of yours

wondering if you were really there

creepily, i was walking alone

i tried to smell my clothes in case i was fooling myself all along

na-ah, not that either

at some point i wished i see you smiling cheekily standing not far waiting for me to find you

but you're not random like that

so i just settled for it to be a cute mystery yet unsolved

oh, how much i missed you...

handful of cuteness on a dreadful yesterday

2010-11-26T10:37:00.004+08:00

about yesterday. i took the last flight from Kuching to KL. the red eye flight. my flight was initially to board at 950pm, but air asia being air asia, the aircraft only arrived at 10pm. and it only took off at around 1035pm. so there goes the precious 45 minutes. slight turbulence now and then. i think i was awake throughout the flight, but before i could fell into a deeper slumber, we touched down in KL 20 minutes early. i rushed to the bus platform, and waited in the bus for another 20 minutes before it pushed off. pfft! and then there's trouble with my mobile phone. it rang a few times but i cant press any of the buttons!!!! ergh!!! and also, there's no caller ID on display!!!! errrrrrgghhhhhhhhhh!!!! huh hah huh hah *breath in breath out* the person who sat next to me must be wondering why i didnt pick up the phone and let the sound pollute the entire bus. haha and approximately at 1.30am, text messages came gushing like water just released by a dam. ahah i received more than 10 sms' between seconds. dating back from 24th Nov til current time. the texts are like 2 days back, and i missed ALOT of information! i missed my friend asking for a meet up; i missed my mom leaving me a note in the morning; i missed my mom saying i didnt have to pick her up; i missed my friend saying she also didnt attend the class last week so she doesnt know whats the new task and i kept on bugging her with new texts; and i missed my friend's invitation to her house :( i dont know whose fault is it. the service provider, or my snail phone. plus i was in the same flight with unis students going back to their hometown for the semester break holiday. i guess they were too excited to come home that they pushed people while they walked and talked loudly like airport ya bapak daknya pun. huh i was seriously not in the mood last night. even Awal Ashaari's presence in the same flight meant nothing. he literally stopped next to my row (in the cabin) waiting for the queue to move, but i malas want to usha his pretty face, and i proceeded to adjusting myself to a good sleep-sitting position. not in the mood okay. ahah! (second time meeting Awal in random places this year!)

and then i woke up this morning to another few delayed text messages. pffft!!

but somehow, this brought smile to my face yesterday:

a handful of kittens!

*second from left dah sendat nyawa nya*

ps: i still suck big time at goodbyes :'(

whole again

2010-11-22T02:30:00.000+08:00

i could feel my chest crushing my heart to pieces that i almost black out when i found out about it. i cried for hours. and i thought to myself, how could i go to sleep with this thing on my mind and this pain in my chest.

and then i came across this video. and i am reminded that someone loves me no matter what, long before i was born. Subhanallah.

اللَّهُمَّ صَلِّ عَلَى مُحَمَّدٍ وَعَلَى آلِ مُحَمَّدٍ

light headed

2010-11-17T14:06:00.002+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha~

so there is this cute thing happened last night at the airport in KL while i was scanning my luggage bag. a short conversation between me and an elderly immigration officer who looks like your typical eldest uncle a.k.a Pak Long a.k.a Wa Laki. seriously. lets call him Pak Wa ok? combination Pak Long and Wa Laki, bukan pakwe as in boyfriend. lalu nak ingat 'pakwe = boyfriend' takorang tok. westernised ada jak ;p

Pak Wa: ni nak balik eh?

me: *nodding head*

Pak Wa: balik mana?

me: Kuching.

Pak Wa: ooo. orang Kuching la ni?

me: haa.

Pak Wa: orang Kuching? betul ni orang Kuching?

me: ha'a betul orang Kuching.

Pak Wa: auk lah. auk. orang Kuching cakap auk.

me: hahaha ok. aok. aok.

satisfied with my answer, he ran off to another scanning station, just like that :)

so in the spirit of being a Kuchingite, watch this! :

in the spirit of raya, watch this! :

in the spirit of spreading happiness, watch this! :

in the spirit of gasping in awe, watch this! :

in the spirit of love, watch this! :

have a meaningful eid friends :)

a dedication, with love

2010-11-14T18:31:00.001+08:00

that morning i woke up earlier than other usual Sunday. i got up and opened up two birthday cards from back home which was mailed to me two days earlier. tears welling up my eyes as i read the words of my parents (how i missed them so much!!) and the cute handwritings of my little sister.

at 9am, i was already on the road heading to my auntie’s place to pass some stuff to bring back to Kuching. i didnt know driving in KL - around BB area - on a Sunday morning could be so relaxing and refreshing. minus the usual traffic congestion, minus black smokes produced by buses and lorries, plus Sunday morning sunshine, it almost feels like driving in Kuching at 7am on a Sunday morning (huh! ada time gap paduhal these two places).

and then i remembered Sheila saying bout having your own me-time on your birthday. so i head to the coffee shop and get myself a big breakfast all by myself. that was already around 1030am - and people here in KL viccinity is STILL having their breakfast. if in Kuching, people is already bustling in and out of Sunday market. even if there are those in the coffee shops, you would see bags of groceries under their table or shopping bags with colourful fruits seated next to them. but people here semua muka fresh lepas mandi sipping their coffee and tea. seriously lah these KL people ada lambat 2 jam.

after a happy hour of having brunch reading a fashion magazine konon-konon stylo, Apiz and i met up and we were all geared up to do flying fox in KL Tower! its like a feast of fireworks in my heart and tummy when i walked up to the registration counter. and as i filled in the form and sign it off, i said to myself 'am i really doing this??' i started having sweaty palms and feet. and in my case, i get EXTRA OVER sweaty palms and feet when i am too anxious. cause i get sweaty palm and feet allllll the time even in an air-conditioned room. and at one point when we were walking towards the platform, i confessed to Apiz 'tuija mok polah bungee jump, tok pun dah cuak. boleh sik sikmok polah??' HAHAHAHAHA well, that was just a conversation to fill in the time gap ok :P :P :P there were four other jumpers that day besides me and Apiz, so they all went first, and Apiz went last. so kira terre la kamek nak, to go before Apiz. its like 'Apiz, tangga Aten polah giney ahh. iboh takut.' yerrdeh! haha the best part was we got to do two jumps each so the first one was kind of a trial jump, and the second one you already know the drill and you can enjoy it without constantly thinking 'whats going to happen next?'

bungee jump vs. flying fox:

in my thought, for my birthday this year, it HAS to be something different AND i dont want to be dependent on other people to make it happen. as the miracle date - 24th October - fall perfectly on a Sunday, i made plans as early as January. they include: bungee jump in Phuket, exploring Bangkok, and fall in love once again for Singapore. those are the many plans which i juggled about to pick out which is the best. but those plan also come with one very big problem. i need a travel mate. i cant go if i dont have anyone going with me. for all you know my dad would be keeping my passport in the safe box with 16-digit security password, or bury it in the ground next to our 'pandok ground' or he might just feed the crocodile with it. oh no over exaggeration happens. so i cant find someone who can go to those places with me on the said date. everyone else has their own schedule to keep up with, and i myself was also busy with assignments and datelines (did not foresee this in January). and then i came across an information bout bungee jump is back in operation in Sunway Lagoon! yippy!! so i made new plan: to bungee jump on 24th October 2010 in Sunway Lagoon. i tried to talk Apiz into doing it with me. cause you'll get a certificate of bravery for doing the jump, and i want Apiz to have one with my birthday date on it. Apiz sik mok. i pleaded him with bambi eyes also he didnt want. he said he'll only take my photos and video of me jumping. and then i redha. and a couple of days before the big day, i told him i dont want to do the jump, cause he's not doing it. i want to do something fun together with him. so we opted to do the flying fox at Menara KL.

bungee jump gik Dear~

and then i went to meet up with my rebel mates back in UIA. we kinda have this routine to meet up for each others’ birthday even if its only for a slice of cake. doing meet-ups like this, its almost like a constant reminder that i will always have these beautiful people by me no matter what. thank you darlings!

and about the Mr. Gorgeous Instax. my new toy. my joy. my muse. i love you. i keep on finding reason to touch you even if i cant use you. apparently Semenanjung Malaysia is having a lack of stock on the film (surprisingly stock melambak in Kuching). so i cant play much with it, yet. out of the 10 films, lemme see, i only took two photos ok! the rests are by Apiz or total strangers. how lah. i want to be in the picture, have to ask someone else to take the photo right? :P

a very BIG thank yous and hearts and bubble clouds and kittens and all the nice things to Apiz Dearie for the cameraa!!~ :D :D :D yippy can i cry?

a very deer friend also gave me this cool bag which i cant stop using it now. i love the vibrant colour, the material, the just-nice size and of course the doll herself who gave it to me. but im scared if i use it too often then the colour would fade or it'll lose its natural texture and become slouchy and oh so many paranoia-of-using-too-much-of-a-beloved-thing-cause-i-dont-want-it-to-lose-its-original-quality-that-makes-me-fall-in-love-with-it-at-the-first-place. hah! oh and because of that paranoia, i like to take photos of my stuff (and keep some of them and never use them)! omg! i sound like a psychopath.

it was a happy birthday for me. in fact it was a happy birthmonth. Apiz did try make every living day of October feels like my birthday and it worked! thank you so much Love, for each and every little details you did (and did not do, esp on dinner night!). can i cry now?

even now, already half way through November, people are still wishing me belated birthday wishes, thank you all for the wishes and doa. may God bless your kindness with even greater kindness from Him. i am overjoyed!

tentang rambut

2010-11-12T23:58:00.000+08:00

today was a good hair day. you know when you wake up in the morning and you go into the bathroom and you see the mirror and then bam! wow! kacak rambut ko pagi tok!

(konon macam tok la tek. siap ada make up skali rah muka. yerrrdeh.)

cause there are times when i wake up like this (not all the time la of course. ada la 2 3 kali setaun jak. kekeke i'm trying to stay positive bout my hair ok. and i think morning hair is cute :p):

(yah. palak katel lekat rah palak. tok bukan bad hair day gik, bed head hair tok namanya.)

well, actually i wanted to write bout something else. i've been wanting to write since afternoon, i was restless int he class! apa tek with a good hair day ahead me, i was so pumped up to do so many things and tell stories! but then i was so busy poking my head into others' blogs and food searching thru the net and then i got distracted with my hair story and now i want to sleep.

night y'all!

esok jak lah oo..

ps: masterchef best gila kot. rasa mok daknya take turn jadi tukang masak di rumah ku. nyeh nyeh nyeh...

photo sense

2010-11-10T00:32:00.000+08:00

my 15-minute little weekend project:

thanks to Sheila who suggested it for hanging my instant photos!! :D i am super loving it. sometimes, i still surprise myself when i turned to this corner in my room and see these cute masterpiece hanging on the wall. hehehe :p (i am still amazed with the shadows on the wall formed by the photos. they just look unreal and photoshoped, but i swear i didn't!) well, i kinda stole the idea from a display unit in Ikea. not exactly stole la, they like lure you into liking the thingy but then there's a label dangling saying 'for display only. make your own!' apakah? so i made my own la. now i cant wait to take more instant photos and fill my room with more of these cuteness! :D

its's my sister's 12th birthday today. happy birthday Farhana~

this is a photo of a six-year old Farhana.

then, lunch @ Holiday Inn, with her curly hair (inspired from me, then. haha i curled mine, and she wanted the same. miak kecik bah. how cute.), running around the restaurant wearing my pink sweatshirt (tuija nak, mok makei baju urang besar??), beaming ngegeh-ly as i chased her to take one good photo (even this turned out blur). one of my favourite photos of her! :D

Love you, doll~

wishlist

2010-10-30T17:33:00.000+08:00

hola people~ October is coming to an end! how time flies pretty quickly when you're having so much fun! so far October has been treating me well. apart from me being bored to death on every Wednesday and Thursday, i redeemed them all on the weekends. weee~ new year is two months away folks. can you believe it? like really believe it?? seems like just last month i posted the entry on my wishlist for this year. and now, eight months later, lets see how the list is doing so far...

2010 wishlist:

1. BUNGY jump - not yet. but instead i did flying fox on my birthday! just to warm up and polished up skills on jumping off a platform! :D

2. go Bangkok - errr maybe next year, can?

3. learn how to ride motorcycle - still got two months to go :B

4. learn how to ride motorcycle before going to Bangkok - will update after #3 is achieved!

5. learn sewing - oh i forgot bout this. haha! oopss.

6. exercise regularly & be fit - errrrrrrrr not that regular, but i did get sweaty once in a while. i miss running. really, i do. i super love running. i used to run at Reservoir Park back in Kuching. but here, scared lah want to go running anywhere. maybe an in-house treadmill is the most appropriate solution, dont you think? ;p

7. stop asking useless invitations to those who seem careless - so far, i think i've avoided making such invitations.

8. learn to trust people more - sometimes i do, sometimes i forgot..

9. have a HAPPIER birthday - HAPPIEST!! will come up with an entry all bout me turning 24 soon! :D

10. study I.D. - TICK! TICK! TICK! :D :D :D

11. talk more to strangers - will continue doing so~

12. text less to Sheila, call more (sorry babe. i know how u hate texting. sometimes i forgot~) - errrm, uh-oh. cant lie here. Sheila might be reading and she'll know if i'm lying. i say, a balance of texting and calling kan Sheila?? sometimes i just wanna say something short, i text her, but then the conversation grew so ... erk.

13. make more people happy - please tell me if i'm making you sad instead of happy, ok!

14. BE HAPPIER MYSELF! - i am happier than i was a year ago, i am happier than i was in four months ago, i am happier than i was yesterday, i will continue growing happy! yippy!

lets top-up this list, can?

15. learn to put myself first, instead of thinking of pleasing others all the time (not being self-centered yea, just looking out for myself cause the real world gets uglier as your age adds up. cant really make everyone happy all the time. i wish i could. if everybody is happy, isnt it a happy world?! who knows the earth might change its shaped into a heart shaped earth! wow i'm crapping!)

you see my wish list is not really a material-wishlist. well thats because when i first wrote this down, i didnt quite understand the concept of a wishlist. poyo jerr~ haha so this is more like a spiritual-wishlist. but IF there is another wishlist that involves material, here goes:

1. instant camera - TICK! TICK! TICK! (been eye-ing the mini Instax 7s for so long~ until the wide version came out, and i got it for turning 24 on the 24th! yeay yeay yeay!)

2. bean bag!!!! - inilah kekaseh hati untok sekian lamanyaa~

3. baking oven - so i can bake cupcakes here in KL! oh, how i miss baking cupcakes :(

4. Golden Half

5. one of these outdoor chairs!! - i dont know where to put them, but i still want!

6. treadmill (refer above)

7. glass cabinet - so i can keep all my growing collection of cameras inside it~

so tadaaa!! you must've wished you did not just read my wishlist coz that means you are obliged to fulfill them!! haha

another birthday dinner tonight. i better get ready! toodles!

hari bersamanya

2010-10-17T12:36:00.001+08:00

16 October 2010

it started out good. i was in a good mood all morning. i got to see the morning sunshine. morning sunshine makes me happy. morning sunshine gives me hope and somehow gives lead to a good day.

duo singing reggae happily on the street - street performers never failed to grab my attention most of the time. but it came the time when you are standing in a sea of people, busy people bustling from left to right, or just standing there blocking your path just to be part of the crowd; the time when you caved in from the world, when you feel misunderstood and hurt, when you think no one really gets you no matter how hard you try to let them in, the time when you only want to be all by yourself and cry your heart out for reasons you are not very sure of, but you want to cry anyways just for the sake of letting it out. yeah i felt that too today. but i got over it. i dont want my sensitive element to get in my way of a beautiful Saturday, so i did what i have to do to get over it.

come dusk, i am preparing myself to watch Eat Pray Love. it is the type of novel which i always see on the shelf in the bookstore which i also passed by without much anticipation. judging the book by its cover, i assumed the book is dull and boring and for the a-little-bit-matured soul. as for the motion picture itself, i heard friends said its beautiful, its for the romantic soul, yet some say draggy, the story line is slow-paced and its long. i still have no intentions to watch it. judging the movie by its poster, Julia Robert eating some gelato on a bench next to some nuns, i think, 'okay thats eating and praying, i guess, then she'll fall in love and same yada yada stuff, and voila~ the end. just another love story'. and THEN, another someone said it was filmed in four different countries. and that caught my attention. just like that, i flipped my heart 180^o and decided to watch it pronto. oh my weakness for places. thanks to Mym, i have easy access of buying last minute tickets on a busy Saturday! babe, you rock! :D though i came in the theatre i lil tad late, and i missed the introduction of Ketut, i am loving the movie so so much i wanna watch it again (and again). it IS beautiful. it is NOT draggy for me. i am so loving the flow of it which carried me gracefully throughout the movie. i LOVE the food part the best :D watching Julia eating spaghetti makes me want to dash out of the cinema and get my own bowl of spaghetti (with meatballs!) and i dont know why but watching Liz making order in Italian language makes me want to read the book, so i can enjoy the food figuratively in my own leisure time. and yes, i assume the book elaborates more on the food (and i hope it tells how the food is being prepared as well, cause that is a super bonus point to help me imagine the food before my eyes). ok i am rambling bout food right now though i just ate. cant help it, food is just yummy. the only one thing i didnt agree was when Felipe talked Liz out bout not eating durian cause it taste like feet. durian is yummy too ok. so Liz's journey is not complete until she tries the durian. come back to Bali and eat durian ok Liz. ok now i'm rambling bout an imaginary sequel of Eat Pray Love on Liz coming back to Bali for Ketut's cremation and eating durian. well thats my story on falling in love with a movie. and i was wrong to assume it is just another romantic love drama making its way on the silver screen. from the way i see it, it gets me thinking, it brings me to places, it pleasures my eyes with all the amazing places that i could only wish to go (for now), it treats my throat and tummy and make me vow to go food hunting even harder in the future! :D maybe also cause Apiz being awake for the entire movie makes it an enjoyable movie to watch :)

though i come home with a sore ankle, i'm glad i end it with SheilaOn7 -like song on the radio. (i think its So7, but i dont know if So7 has a new song, the singer just sound like Duta, and i miss Duta's singing. and their soothing songs.) that one completes the day :)

i just googled!! yes it is Sheila on 7! it's 'Hari Bersamanya'

everything that happened today, be it walking under the sun, singing to the cheerful song about girl meets boy on replay, taking photos with supersampler which i abandoned for too long thinking it was broken when i was the one who forgot how to load a film, hunting for Sarawak local delicacy in peninsular land, got carried away by mood swings, laughing my heart out at a story of dreaming bout a pig's snort, laughing my chest out on the ambition of being a forgetful futuristic guy, it is all worth it. each incident is worth the feeling. and now i am smiling with my liver :) :) :)

ngerepoks ol' style

2010-09-24T13:16:00.000+08:00

hah! tok ku nak ngerepak lok. haruslah makei bahasa ibunda baruk feeel~

paduhal album Yuna dah keluar???! sori lah pok, i sik tauk. baruk malam tadik tauk. dalam kol 11 lebeh dekat nak kol 12. kira tek nak nyarik next showcase Yuna la tek. sekali nangga bejumpa ngan news nya launching album 'Decorate' nya 24 & 25 July ya tek rah KLPac. siryes sik tauk. dah lah nya molah showcase for 2 days. rah Pentas 1 gik ya. Pentas 1 is the biggest space in KLPac that can fit more than 500 people ok! dah lah time ya (24 & 25 July) i dah ada di KL. apa kah di polah i minggu ya ooo. hmmm. mesti tengah raon aimlessly dalam shopping complex dengan Apiz demi aircond. mun di Kuching tek, ngerepak sikpat pegi all the happenings rah KL. mala jak beduka lara hoping i was in KL for all the cool gigs. dah di KL, sik keep track ngan showcases kedak tok. sik tauk juak dah katak spesis pa i tok. katak tido nyenyak bawah tempurung bawah rimbunan daun nyiur di takuk lama kali. yah yah. rasa nak turun pasar meli album ya kinek-kinek jak lekak maca news ya. tapi dah kol 12 tgh mlm, kedei nei bukak? mun jak di sitok tek ada Mydin 24 jam macam rah Melaka. mun jak Mydin ada bejual album Yuna nak? tapi ya la tek, Mydin semua ada. aieh tok ngerepak hal Mydin kah Yuna? baruk last week madah ngan Apiz 'bila lah album Yuna tok nak keluar.' Apiz pun diam juak, meaning nya sik tauk la ya. so mek duak kira sama spesis katak lah. sekpa, you frog i frog, dear.

bah, pa gik. mupok lok. nak g kedei meli album 'Decorate'.

ps: i'm done with Term 1 ID!!! Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah :) :)

perception

2010-09-17T19:06:00.001+08:00

confidence is always misunderstood as arrogance
opinions might be judged without listening
understanding seems impossible
impressions are made by the cover
ignorance is considered bliss
when you are actually in loss
the beauty inside remains concealed
individuality is far from being acknowledged
acceptance is tougher than you think it is
selfness prevails without second thought
hurtful words wounded the unhealed heart
we continue live life like it never happens
and yet you demand appreciation.

says who the world is fair? God who's governing the universe is, but the ungrateful human governing the system on earth isn't, and none would be. including you and me.

daddy's hero

2010-09-07T21:13:00.000+08:00

how cute is she wanting to get dress for the paramedics. and her father must be REALLY proud of her :) :)

art museum

2010-08-27T17:09:00.004+08:00

i got the chance to go to national Islamic Arts Museum recently. they are having special exhibition on jewelled arts of India in the Moghuls Dynasty. i guess we all know that India is famous with the production colourful accessories with colourful stones, gems and beads embeded on gold or silver, and they wear them too. but, the knowledge is not the same until you see the original piece with your own eyeballs. the masterpieces dated back in 16th & 17th century and surprisingly, they look so new that i have to ask someone else in the gallery if those are original or just miniatures. and once i found out that they are the original pieces, i started playing with my imagination. like the pendants and the rings are once worn by the emperors. and how the dagger was used to stabbed someone, and they used to have blood on it, but they cleaned it up and polished the stones until they are shiny. they are just too many jewelleries with so so so many beautiful design and colours on display. they even have gems like diamonds and jades embebeded on swords and shields, and they go killing people with it. it looks heavy though. i bet one small ring must value like 100million Ringgit Malaysia today, or more. but its funny that those jewelleries are mainly worn by men according to the paintings that somehow described the items. towards the end of the exhibition, there are these small stones with inscription on them. there is one which is very tiny, less than 3cmx3cm, and it has 12 inscriptions on it, in arabic calligraphy! my favourite was the red stone, if i'm not mistaken its a ruby, sized more or less 2x2cm and it has the Ayatul Kursi on it. imagined fitting the whole ayat on a stone that small. and the stones with inscriptions are all handcraft. that just blew me away!!

and then i moved on to the main gallery which is also the permanent gallery of the museum. this gallery allows you to take photos of the items but without flash. but i knew that fact too late so i missed the first half part of the gallery. but i did shot some photos on my favourites findings. so here goes:

this is the Qur'an, originated from China, written in chinese calligraphy.

also from China, dated back in 12th-14th century. and for these original piece which dated back in the year 8 Hijrah, thinking that our prophet Rasulullah SAW was still alive then, really means something.

5 juzuk of the Qur'an, also from China. my Chinese friend said, the cover reads 'The Faith Book'.

also from China, the juzuk of the Qur'an.

these really caught me in awe. the cover is actually made from leather.

the clothing during the Ottoman age.

i instantly love this chest once i laid my eyes on it. its like a musical box with side's opening with many drawers, dont you think?

another many-drawer-chest.

and another one..

and this is one of the many domes in the museum. magnificent architecture! you must be standing under the dome to know the feeling it gives you.

after this one i decided to have my own dome in my house. hehehe

i missed the Qur'an Manuscript and Architecture galleries though because we were rushing to go home :( maybe i'll visit it again one day. you people who wants to experience the glorious feeling of looking at the artifacts of the Islamic world, please do come to the museum too. and you people who want to see the Qur'an from other parts of the world, please do come too. they also have the Qur'an which is found in the Tanah Melayu, but i didnt get the chance to take the photo of it. just make sure you have one whole day dedicated to explore the galleries, and you wont regret it :)

medley

2010-08-19T15:33:00.004+08:00

i have few things on my mind. so i'm gonna say few things.

1. i have this phobia of receiving texts or calls like really late at night (when i say late at night, i mean past 12am), and like really early in the morning. especially when i dont expect them. especially if it is from the people who are very close to me. this morning, i received a text from Bapak at 7.59am. he said one of his friend just died in KL earlier in the dawn. his wife was trying to wake him up for sahur, and he didnt respond. thats his story. when a part of me was still in shock upon hearing such news, when i struggled to hold up my tears when i break the news to Abang, there is somehow a serenity emotion giant sweep over my heart and head thinking how peaceful his soul is to experience death in his sleep in Ramadhan. i feel sad for his family still. one of his two children is still schooling, like in form 1 or 2. though we were not that close, but i know he is one of Bapak's very good friend. everytime Bapak come over to KL, he would trouble himself to go see Bapak wherever Bapak is. he also did bring his whole family to Muar to attend Abang's engagement and wedding ceremony. i knew him since i was a kid, like when he used to live in Kuching with his family, our family would always meet up for gatherings. and now, everytime i meet his children, they are like so approachable and nice that they didnt turn into snobs although they did experienced the life of the rich and famous. so maybe that is why i feel his lost too. the last time we saw him, which is in April this year, he looked so healthy and still kicking, joking around like usual. he was younger than Bapak. and i can imagine how Bapak is shocked when he heard about this. but Allah SWT has a better plan for all of us. may Allah rests Uncle Usup's soul in peace. may Allah forgives all his sins. may Allah grants him Paradise. may Allah protects his family. Amin. Amin. Amin. Amin. Al-Fatihah.

* Al-Fatihah too, to my late Nek Di, Uncle Y and Syafiq. they will always have a special place in my heart. may Allah SWT place them with the believers in one of His Paradises. Amin

2. you dont really know what you did, until someone ask what you've done. then only you'll start to trace back your steps and realised what you did.

3. we always get what we want when we are sleeping. in our dream. we always get what we want. like in your dream, you already bought that dress you wanted for so long, and you're truly happy bout it you go gaga in your dream. but then, a single screeching sound in the real world snatches the dress away from you. you meet this really cool new friend in your dream, whom you never see before in real life. a friend actually introduced you guys. new friend is cool, new friend take your hand and lets you stay for dinner, eventhough new friend just knew you not even for half a day. you wish all new friend is that nice in real world. when someone in my dream to bad things to me, a knight in shining armour comes in my defense even if it means Mr. Knight would have suffer some injuries in the process. and when i woke up from the sound of my alarm clock, i smile to myself thinking bout my real world knight in not so shining armour. but its fine, i would have run anyways if i see a man holding a shiny thing they call an armour. scary, dont you think? this is not zaman gladiator. just bring your brain where ever you go will do.

4. i come to the realisation that i admit i'm a realist. if its red, you stop. but sometimes, i still like to be a dreamer.

5. i cant post photos on FB. i dont know why. something to do with the firewall maybe. or the connection. but if its the firewall or the connection, how come i did upload photos on FB before, using the same laptop, same browser, same connection provider? maybe its the place. i dont even know if that has something to do with it. so i've been putting off a number of cupcakes photos on hold. and i feel its not right. not fair to those who bought my cupcakes but didnt get to see their orders in my album. cause i would post the photos of my cupcakes right after i'm done with every batch, sometimes i post it before i could deliver to the person whom ordered it! so, i'll just post them here instead. so these are two batches of cupcakes which i did before i left for Raffles. the ones with the Roses is my standard size cupcakes. while the bunch of pinks and purples and whites are the small size of cupcakes. they are cute in size. and when i start putting colours on them, i think they dont deserve to be in the stomach. they should be in a display rack with glass panels all around. i'm not gloating on my designs, ok. what i mean is, they just turn super cuter when they are in small scales.

thanks Zaty for the order! :D

thanks Syasya for the order of these tiny cupcakes! :D

6. my new favourite phrases:

1 - 'you know what i mean?' (top!!)

2 - 'i mean like..'

3 - 'blablabla...like...blablabla' oh and this one has the BM version also : 'blablabla...macam...blablabla' direct translation kah apa??

bless you

2010-08-10T19:54:00.000+08:00

despite of Mak just flew back to Kuching yesterday, i still miss her, and Bapak too. i guess when we are too dependable on someone, we become weak and helpless when we are left alone. at least thats how i am. mok balit rumah aih :'[

happy Ramadhan brothers and sisters in Islam. the month full of barakah. spend it wisely :)

gleeful thursday

2010-08-05T17:31:00.000+08:00

you know how i use to whine bout not going to Cuci the Musical last year? this year, i'm going ya'll!! :D

in fact, in three hours, i'll be laughing my head off to Afdlin Shauki, Awie(!!!) and Hans Isaac.

and and and. NO AC Mizal! his character is played by Nabil this time around. how fun is that??

i better get ready. toodles!

miss you love

2010-08-04T18:11:00.003+08:00

i'm sick, currently. i've been sick for almost three weeks now i guess. i just hope it wont get the best out of me. i may weep a little or so, at times, some nights, but i can do this, i hope. and i really need to be able to do this since Ramadhan is only five days away, and i'm sure it will be tougher then. but dont worry, i dont think its infectious.

i'm just homesick :'')

just because i do

2010-07-29T23:48:00.000+08:00

"dear.." she said. leaning on one side of her body against the door frame of their room.

he was watching ESPN when his lover called him. he looked up.

they stared at each other for a while. he was waiting for her next line.

she suddenly rushed to him and put her arms around his torso so tightly and started crying. surprised and confused, he held her back in return and asked, "what's wrong, love? what happened?"

she kept on crying. and cried. and cried. and didn't answer his questions.

he still didn't know what's going on, but he wrapped his arms so firmly around her body, giving her comfort and warmth. his chin resting on her newly shampooed hair. the way they held each other looked like they were two pieces of puzzle that fit so perfectly together that there were no room for air to pass through their intersecting parts. they sat there on the couch and held each other for the longest period ever without saying any words. the only sound that can be heard was the one from the TV box.

as he felt her shoulders relaxed a little, and as she stopped sobbing, he took her chin up til their eyes were at the same level. concern in his eyes. while hers are puffed from all the salty water coming out from them.

"i never want you to be sad. so i'm crying all my tears out on your behalf. for all your sad memories and sorrow feelings. now you will never be sad again. cause i did them for you. promise me you won't be sad any more." she finally spoke. her lower lips trembled with every words. she tried hard not to continue crying part two.

"but, love.." he attempted to speak.

only stopped by her.

"i love you too much.."

crazy love

2010-07-13T14:10:00.000+08:00

i have a few posts sitting in my drafts box waiting to be posted in here. but the posts need some photo attachments to help you enjoy my boring yada-yada essay. but at the moment, i cant post them yet because i cant attach the photos, because my laptop get some seizure attack whenever i try to upload or download something from the internet. haha over dramatic, i know. and also, i cant write peacefully in this new space in KL i call my second home. because there is something watching my fingers moving up and down typing and its waiting the right time to jump on the keyboard and chew my fingers off. oh oh dramatic some more. and right now it's trying to eat off the laptop screen. ohh this is so scary~

so far, life has been great here. yesterday i went to my first Freehand Drawing class and i think it was a blast! although we only learned how to draw like a full page of eggs and circles and boxes, i think it was great. and drawing a perfect egg in a continuous line is harder than you think it is. you try lah! and thank God the lecturers are all fun people. yeay!

of course, i miss waking up in my bed in Kuching. i miss going out for breakfast with my cousin. i miss Saturday night fusion in Saddad Court. i miss baking cupcakes mid-morning till lunch hour and Bapak and Mak come home for lunch and they watch my cupcakes and they have these little smiles on their faces read 'nice smell of cupcakes, but i wanna eat my lunch on this table'. erk. maybe not. well, actually that's what i always thought of after i'm done with cupcakes at 12.30pm. i miss waiting for my parents and Farhana to come home for lunch and eat together with them. i miss teasing Farhana. and last night i cried missing Fluffy. i hope she's doing ok back home.but Alhamdulillah, i have thoughtful friends who constantly reminding me on skills to survive living away from home. thank you Sheila for reminding me to not skip any of my meals. you have really mendatangkan kesedaran to me the other day when you talk about skipping meals with your simple words. everytime i forgot to eat, i remember you ngerepok with concern bout not eating and getting gastritis. and thank you Apiz for reminding me not to waste my money buying unnecessary cute things. i cant believe you actually mock me and say i only buy them to take pictures and not use them. huh! but true also lah. thank you Dear. everytime i see cute things, i ask myself: will i ever use them, and will Apiz shake his head when he knows i bought it? (but i did buy the cute Ikea container set anyway. how lah. it looks sooo cute when arranged together. i swear i'll use them. and no. i wont take photos of them lining up descending in size.) next cute thing, i will do what you say ok? erk. oh oh ohh! and i met this new boy. he's not that cute. but he definitely has the X-factor. he's crazy ~~sometimes~~ all the times. everytime i'm not around him, i found myself always thinking bout him and missing him. i wish i can be with him all the time. err no no. scratch that. since he's a little cuckoo, i dont want to be around him all the time. maybe only at times when he's adorably cute and makes a fool of himself and crack me up like no one else could. and i'm so happy that Apiz likes him too. and they actually found something in common.

meet Mickey, the mouse-trapped-in-a-cat's-body.

he's thoughtful you see. ALL.THE.TIME. trying too hard to be there for everyone. this was when he tried to help me get a table set up.

this is also the creature who jumps up and down my keyboard and chase ~~the mouse~~ my hand (while holding the mouse). you make my day, crazy fella. xoxo you.

when two equals two

2010-06-26T13:06:00.001+08:00

matter regarding the heart, and involves a boy and a girl is sometimes very much complicated more than you know. when it is actually simple to love and to be loved, admit it that our desires and needs in life sometimes moves parallel and doesnt have a meeting point at any circumstances. that is when we have to build a strong (and flexible) bridge to connect those two lines so we can go to the other side at any desired time to support each other. and who knows if those lines might find a way to intersect at some point.

i have this thing bout me bout how i like to say things metaphorically, that sometimes people dont really get what i say, and sometimes the message doesnt really reach the dedicated persona cos that person doesnt really know if i'm talking bout/to him/her just cos i dont mention the issue directly, but sometimes, its just that they simply think i'm not talking bout them and plain ignore it.

it is so much easier to think like a little kid, no?

one day, Bapak was talking bout how hairdressers and chefs can easily get a PR status in the Australia. and Farhana said:

'apa hairdresser? rambut pakei baju?? pelik na juak?'

and then another time, Bapak said a friend of his died of 'sakit TB'. and Farhana the TV junkie said:

'aie! nangga TB (as in television, TV) boleh sakit kah??'

cilck here for more cute monsters by Lucy Doan!

sometimes, all a girl wants is attention and gestures showing that we matter; and of course constant reminder that we are always loved and remembered :)

sweet tooth

2010-06-25T19:06:00.001+08:00

here's another cupcake story. enjoy!

i think this design has grown to be one of my favs.

nice effect huh? good job plastic factory! hehe

one of my favs too!

until we meet again!

superMan day

2010-06-20T22:47:00.000+08:00

i love you, Bapak! :) :) :)

Happy Father's Day to all Fathers across the universe!!

the mute elephant

2010-06-12T23:56:00.004+08:00

i have one disturbing thing in my mind right now. one big thing. and i cant seem to tell anyone bout it, its just not right. but i am grateful that i will always have the Al-'Alim with me all the time for only He knows whats within me without me saying a word, and with His willing, i will be fine for He is also Al-Hadi.

"Verily Allah knows (all) the hidden things of the heavens and the earth: verily He has full knowledge of all that is in (men's) hearts."

Surah 35, Fatir (The Angels, Orignator) - verse 38

baking & decorating cupcakes help me get my mind off things too.

i turned into a happy cartoon bunny who floats around the house instead of walking everytime i finished a batch of cupcakes :)

and also Saddad Fusion tonight was awesome. i think it is the best Saddad Fusion ever. maybe also because there were two crowds - one routing for football who screamed 'oohs' and 'aahs' time and again; and, one cheering their pretty voices out for the bands on stage. anyhow, with performers singing in your neighbourhood songs like 'aku skandal' in French; some evergreen old soul rock songs which i heard before but never knew their title; and, a guy who looks very naive but really knows how to rock the stage with a guitar and his one of a kind voice (he did get the loudest applause i think), anyone would be uplifted and going back home still in awe. at least thats how i feel.

oh, i'm happier already! but the big elephant in the room is still there.

vibrancy

2010-06-10T00:24:00.002+08:00

i go gaga over colourful things. and cute stuff too. if i happened to possess them, i usually take millions of photos of them before i put them into full use. but most of the time, i love them so much i keep them in the cupboard afraid i might wear them all out - e.g. i've got a photo frame i got on my 16th birthday still intact in its box, i've a colourful mug set i bought like 6/7 years ago still wrapped in brown paper, two summer dresses from 2 years ago waiting for the right time to be worn, lets just stop there ok. AND, at the end of the ~~day~~ year, its still there and defeats its own purpose. is there any name for this kinda habit? but i'm sure i'm not alone in this matter. so who here is overly penyayang and keep their stuff in a nice paper bag in a box in a cupboard, hands up!! owwh, so you're in denial, huh? its ok.. i feel you.. *doing the Joey wink (watch more Friends, will you)*

so this is a tribute entry to my childish fixation: my new found love of colourful pencil(s) and cute paperclips. please bear with me.

you feel me yet?

that's all. thank you. bye! :D

merriment

2010-06-06T20:42:00.004+08:00

can't trust everything in the newspapers :p

84th birthday cupcakes :)

tea time cupcakes :)

i had fun fun fun :)

rhapsody for the soul

2010-06-04T01:24:00.000+08:00

i first watched this video on a friend's Friendster profile page. i was immediately awe-stricken when i first heard it. since then, i found myself missing it once in a while while doing my daily chores and i would go to her page and watch it on loop. some of you might have watched this before, but just in case you haven't, why not i share this beautiful recitation of the Quran and may we find tranquility in this uproaring world in it :) i think it is best if you watch this with your headphones/earphones on, and let it pervades through your veins and bones, and stream along with your blood, and hopefully, will increase our faith to Him, the Originator. Subhanallah.

yet untitled

2010-06-02T14:12:00.001+08:00

random awesome:

someone out of town:

ps: cant wait for Yuna's debut album :)

the smiling sun

2010-05-27T12:04:00.001+08:00

Tadika Sinaran we are one~

Tadika Sinaran we have fun~

i super love that song once (still do today, just cant remember the whole lyric now) but i didnt last long there due to some reasons, like its too far from my parents offices (i went to the one in Rock Rd, that time the one in Jln Astana haven't existed yet) and i keep on getting into fights with the boys there. erk! there are other good memories of course. like swimming in the inflatable swimming pool placed in the back lawn with fellow classmates. and sweating all my salts off playing in the small playhouse at the front yard of the school. also, learning how to read with the aid of a book about three little pigs. Tadika Sinaran will always hold a special place in my heart, coz that was my debut to the social life, i think. haha! and i really did had FUN! :D

teachers day celebration came late for the kids of Tadika Sinaran this year, and i made this for my little cousin for her to bring to school the next day (that's today). i did tell my five year old cousin no to eat them before her teacher could see them all intact together. but a little bit later last night, i heard Alisya has already eaten one of them - cant wait for tomorrow - apparently the pink one, coz she loves that colour so much. how cute!

my personal favourite! the sun resembles Tadika Sinaran. geddit? hihi

sunday hug!

2010-05-23T23:43:00.000+08:00

this bear just made my sunday! :D

1, 2, 3

2010-05-17T22:30:00.000+08:00

when we are far apart, i badly wish we are close. so we can always meet up. so i can always be there by your side anytime you want me to. so i can hold you, touch you and make you feel ok just by being there. but when we are seated side by side, my tongue is tied. i have nothing in my brain that could form a word that i could speak up, but i have so much in my heart that i want to pour, doubting if you want to hear them all. and so i wish we are not that close, maybe in the same room but not on a rendeavous of four eyes. i know i suck at speaking up. i just want you to feel ok, and know you're feeling ok. but i can be a good listener though.

i recalled that awkward lunch we had in town years back. that one afternoon. we barely know each other but we promised to meet up. it is refreshing to meet a new old friend. we dont really have a memory of each other, but we know we are friends when we are a little bit younger, a little bit cuter :) i miss hanging around with you. but is it possible for us to miss something that never really happened? or at least i cant remember if it happened. or is it not missing a friend that's inside. perhaps its more to longing to spend more time with an old friend, and get to know you better.

i miss watching orchestra at Dewan Filharmonik Petronas. i want my jaw drops on my lap while my eyes make quick blinks for the first 10 minutes of the performance (the ones after the first 10 minutes are controllabe with ryhtmic heart beat and joyous blinks) never wanting to lose sight of any movement made by the team (i just love to know who makes what sound, though i know i cant watch them all at once), while i hold my breath . and how the applause ALWAYS start with one person and then join by others, just like in the movies (and we think those movies are corny). and how each piece could move me to tears which i usually hide - afraid the person who sits next to me thinks i'm a drama queen on the lose. and watch late-comers in grammy-award-dress make their unfashionably late entrance during the intervals. i miss the one we had in Kuching last two years by the Malaysian Philharmonic Youth Orchestra even more cause nothing feels better than doing what i love in my very own home town with my very own loved one :)

my first order! yay! :D

yummy cream!

2010-05-12T21:09:00.000+08:00

my second attempt on butter icing (butter cream-ier). and this one is way tastier than the Mother's Day cupcakes :p

thinking of Dearie while i made these :)

Hari Ibu

2010-05-09T22:24:00.002+08:00

hey you! yep, you. take a look at yourself in the mirror. look how healthy you are. how tall you've grown. how 'wide' you've become. how smart your brain works. how handsome and gorgeous you appear. now take a look at the woman you've known as your Mother. how big is she physically compared to you right now? smaller than you are? shorter maybe? slightly bigger? the same size as you, perhaps? imagine you were once were one with her. you were once inside her. for at least seven months, all of us were once inside the womb of that woman we call Mak/Mama/Mummy/Ibu. for at least seven full moons we ate what she ate; we followed her everywhere she went; we listened to every words she said; she was never alone, i doubt she wanted to, she carried us every where! we were the bestest friend ever, never parted, for at least seven months.

my mom is my Superman, except she's a woman. she's my Doraemon, except she doesn't have the magical pocket, but she has the beautiful heart where everything has a solution inside (and she has the one-stop handbag too!). she's my very own supermom. my mom is incredible. i believe all moms are :)

have you ever thought how these women know how to do almost everything in the world? from bargaining fish at the market, to negotiating a house at a property expo. from preparing the yummiest food ever, to making you feel bad when you've done something wrong to them. Mothers are super incredible, don't you think? :)

you want to see a Mother's love, take a look at yourself.

you want to see the love and the power of the God Al-Mighty, take a look at your Mother. Subhanallah.

Happy Mother's Day to all mothers in the world (that includes Fluffy, the mother cat of seven naughty babies!)~

Happy Mother's Day to my dearest mom. I Love You, Mak! :) :) :) :) :)

underappreciated

2010-05-04T18:13:00.000+08:00

one lazy evening

2010-04-22T15:54:00.001+08:00

"I have moods. Like any other person I have moods. Sometimes mine last a bit longer, seem a bit deeper, but that's because I feel things with a depth most people don't allow themselves to experience. I worry, I fret, I take things to heart and keep them there."

- Steph, D.K.

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[3] sexy feet

[4] even sexier feet (on the right)

[5] super sexiest feet

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ps: oh, and please help me feed my virtual fish will ya? i started with eight (or ten, cant really remember) and now only five left. erk! (i never knew these pet could die!) and why are they turning red? i thought i got them in all colours.. hmmm

thank you anyways! :D

thinking of you

2010-04-21T01:05:00.001+08:00

it is always refreshing to watch new couples together. be it they just started a whole new relationship together, or a newly wed couple who vowed to stay with each other through thick and thin and through all the bounties and jokes of life. the happiness are visible through their smiles which seem never ending. through their eyes which seem hard to take off of each other. the excitement to live the coming days of having someone to say 'good morning beautiful' on a brand new morning and to whisper 'good night love' as the moon moves further up is just unbearable. as much as they want to be known as 'the new couple' and keep the fresh vibe alive, they cant wait to spend their days together. to savour the days in and out together. to collect as many memories as they could as an item. to greet a friend on the street and to proudly introduce the other half as the soul mate. especially to celebrate anniversaries and to still see the same soul and heart even after decades of pure love.

sometimes i found myself staring at random pairs on the street and watch them flirt with each other. in awe when he takes her hand because they are about to cross a busy street and take that chance to not let go of her hand even they're already on the safe side of the street. and the way she smiles proudly to be walking next to a man who appears to be protecting her from every possible harm along the way. and the way he listens religiously to her stories seizing the moment to admire her beauty. and the way she laughs genuinely at his jokes and quietly hoping this day would come often.

i'm truly overjoyed for those who've found new love in life or even start a new phase of life. i see the glow in your faces and i hear the contentment in your voices. to a beloved brother and wife, and to a dear friend and partner: i wish you all the best in life, and keep the love blooming~

now call that person in your mind while you're on this post and tell him/her that you're just simply thinking bout him/her :)

tell me its OK

2010-03-26T14:17:00.000+08:00

prologue:

why is it so hard for me trust people? please tell me how to do so, cause i really need to know, and i want to trust the people around me, and i especially need to do so for i love them. but i keep holding back and stand in a corner armed with thick metal shield over my body and my heart after i gave them something. scared of being unappreciated. scarred that they did not appreciate it. making it even harder for me to not feel sorry that i have gave them a piece of me.

Shasheila! i miss you! and i miss you just because i do, ok? no hidden agenda :P just cause i looked out my window this afternoon, and the sunny weather reminds me of beaches, and beaches often remind me of clear water of islands which means holiday, and that reminds me of you. hihi next trip please!

Chisselle. i cant keep missing you. there is no way i am going to find another one like you. eventhough you're only a cat. i have to move on, but i am allowed to think of you and miss you, right bimbo? miss you like crazy Giselle :( please know that i love you so much though i always locked you out of my room. your white hair is just sooo .. light they flew all over my room.

ps: please support Earth Hour on 27th March 2010. you only have to switch off the lights and your PCs and your TVs and all of your electrical appliances for an hour. hee! thats from 8.30pm till 9.30pm and the Earth will thank you from the even bottom of the rock bottom :) :) :)